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I find it impossible for me to get a clear conceptual understanding of that.
How were you able change your mind without first writing up your Doubt formula, getting upgraded, and then delivering an effective blow to the enemy of the group you had been pretending to be part of despite personal danger?
To my knowledge, nobody in recorded history has ever successfully changed their religion (or career choice, place of employment, automobiles or even moving away from their present neighborhood for that matter ) without first delivering effective blows to Scientology's enemies[SUP]*[/SUP].
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[SUP]*[/SUP] By way of example, I once wanted to move from New York to San Francisco. That could never have successfully happened unless I had first delivered an effective blow to the enemy (my neighbors living in Greenwich Village). In fact it took me several days to cover their homes in dead-agent graffiti, knock their garbage cans over, key their parked cars and set off enough car alarms to keep waking them up at all hours of the night. Naturally, my effective blow eventually shattered them and thus they were not able to prevent me from moving to California. I probably should mention (for the benefit of new Scientologists) that my win was huge and I wrote a success story about my floating TA when I cognited that I was pretending to be part of the group of ethical upstat Californians but actually covertly working to sabotage their goals by living in a big East Coast city. The move took me considerably longer than I expected (and expensive!) because I had to keep flying out to San Francisco countless time to get signatures on my Liability Formula because I had to get more than half of the 837,000 people that live there before I would be allowed to join the group and have permission to move there.