Mimsey Borogrove
Crusader
I think many exes eschew whole track incidents and BTs as batshit crazy Hubbard spew. This is despite other non-Hubbardian beliefs to the contrary. True, after a while, running dianetics, the incidents seem too pat or in some cases you know you are running dub in, and so write it all off as bull shit.
But, what of those incidents that come out of left field? And of those that don't even occur in session? Those compulsions or dramatizations that take you over and leave you wondering what the fuck just happened? You find your self stuck acting out something that has taken control of your volition? Things that you find your self doing for the first time that feel eerily familiar?
Are they manifestations of an earlier life that got turned on? The limbic system gone mad? Jungian archetypes that have got your in their thrall?
Oh and speaking of BT's - what about the ones that have startlingly real personalities and talk to you as if they were a real person? As unpredictably as when you conversing with a total stranger? Saying stuff that makes you seriously believe in their real existence?
Did you mock them up to run, or were they real?
Where as Scientologists may chalk these things up as real, what do you, the ex or non scientologist do when confronted with such a 3d pole sticking off the surface of your a 2d world? Deny it? Cognitive dissonance it? Believe it? Ignore it? Hope it goes away? Put off thinking about it? Get a migraine?
These are the things that are much like that beloved 50's tv show: Up ahead is a sign post - you are entering.... the Twilight Zone, because how do you explain them? They may be subjective, but damn - are they real. And they are unsettling.
Very unsettling.
Mimsey
But, what of those incidents that come out of left field? And of those that don't even occur in session? Those compulsions or dramatizations that take you over and leave you wondering what the fuck just happened? You find your self stuck acting out something that has taken control of your volition? Things that you find your self doing for the first time that feel eerily familiar?
Are they manifestations of an earlier life that got turned on? The limbic system gone mad? Jungian archetypes that have got your in their thrall?
Oh and speaking of BT's - what about the ones that have startlingly real personalities and talk to you as if they were a real person? As unpredictably as when you conversing with a total stranger? Saying stuff that makes you seriously believe in their real existence?
Did you mock them up to run, or were they real?
Where as Scientologists may chalk these things up as real, what do you, the ex or non scientologist do when confronted with such a 3d pole sticking off the surface of your a 2d world? Deny it? Cognitive dissonance it? Believe it? Ignore it? Hope it goes away? Put off thinking about it? Get a migraine?
These are the things that are much like that beloved 50's tv show: Up ahead is a sign post - you are entering.... the Twilight Zone, because how do you explain them? They may be subjective, but damn - are they real. And they are unsettling.
Very unsettling.
Mimsey