Nother thing that often happens is a Clear tries to route in to Flag for their OT levels, and they are R-Factored that The C/S has adjudicated that she is not yet Clear, and the Clear attest is cancelled.
She caved.
yep, I would agree with that, this shit rhetoric by hubbard can have a profound effect on one, of one attaining states of awareness and ability, and it fucks with one's mind.
Your daughter, Hilda, audited me on method 1, ARC Straightwire and Grade 0.
After completing Method 1, I did not achieve the ability to recall my education. In fact the whole auditing rundown was hard and grueling and the only thing that kept me going was I wanted to go Clear.
ARC Straightwire was fun and I actually did think I achieved the EP of a PC knowing he/she will not get worse. I'd probably put it now in the category of talking to somebody about pleasure moments and it makes one happy.
Grade 0, or communications release, or the ability to talk to anybody about anything, on all four flows. Well, Hilda and I did that rundown, we did all the process's and it was good, I did feel maybe I could do that EP, but I wasn't sure. So, after completing all the process's on the rundown, why I was to attest.
I never attested, I said to the examiner I'm not sure if I can communicate to anybody about anything and I'd like to do more. My folder was sent back to the C/S. Now, this was when I was on staff, and Hilda was a volunteer staff auditor, she wanted to help staff.
Anyways, being on staff and the commotions of staff life, get your stats up, etc. Why my refusal to attest was dropped and forgotten you might say, as this was also the time of the Time Article which caused major flaps at the org/mission I was at.
Nevertheless, what's my point, I still continued chasing the dream of Clear and then OT.
Here I am protesting now it's all bunk, and I'm married to a OT8 who thinks the same.
I am sad of another needless death.
BTW, I consider your daughter a friend, I wish I could talk to her.
Another BTW, once while talking with Hilda, outside of auditing, I said something like I have no plants in my living quarters and I'd like some, she gave me a spider plant to grow. To this day, that spider plant is still with me, it's a living memory of your daughter, I just wanted you to know that. We call it Hilda.