In present time
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My mother doesn't really have anything in particular. She has suffered several strokes, has crippling arthritis, and other maladies that make her life a bucketful of pain. It fascinates me (in an upsetting way) that the rest of the family has thrown her away. She is "no use" anymore. I don't know what I am looking at here... there are no time factors or anything like that. It is just a day to day (struggle?). I do struggle, because it is nerve-wracking. She will fall if I take my eye off her for a second. Sometimes the falls are quite serious. It is not hard for falls to be serious, because she is so frail. Purple witnessed one of these. Mr. IPT was right there, I was just in the bathroom... hurrying fast like you do when your stats are down! Anyway, I am just whittering. I haven't done her nails in a long time. I seem to only have so much energy. My mother is not that responsive, in an odd way. And the only approach I can take without completely wearing myself down is to be very effective.(And yes, that is an old bit of my Scientology indoctrination.) To anticipate every need. I feel I really lack in connecting with her emotionally. This week I hired a physical therapist to come three times a week. She is such a sweet and lovely woman named Anna. I hope Anna can give, what I just don't seem to have the energy left over for.