I am afraid to post my story. I am aware they know who I am. The level I was on makes me know this. I am aware they will destroy me should I stick my head out of my shell. However, a 5 liter mini-keg of Heineken and Freedom day on the horizon somewhat made me do a search tonight. I found this board and here I doth be.
My life was great before I joined the SO, my life absolutely, completely, tanked shortly after the EPF and I spent the time making their lives easier, which wasn't my post, and all I got was hell for it. I talked briefly about 10 years ago with someone, put out my entire story to him and then put my gag back on. Maybe its a 10 year cycle I go through.
Since my Freedom day my life has done nothing but improve. My spirituality has focused, and all I can thank SCN for is helping me realize they are not the path to spiritual freedom and will do nothing but destroy you, and anyone associated with it, to further their agenda - Common fucking sense! Sorry, sometimes EX SO members just get mad.
Egads, the stuff I saw, the stuff they expected me to fix was completely unreal. Never before entering and since leaving had I been subjected to their un-realistic view of a world or state of being. I got a story that is unbelievable, which is probably why it is best unsaid.
If you are in the SO and want out, it is possible, YOU have to make it happen! Just do it! Listen to your internal voice, it is getting louder for a reason. Start today! God will help, trust in God. Your Freedom day is at stake and awaiting you.