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  1. secret

    secret New Member


    born into Scientology family, found out the "truth" about scientology very early. Lived my youth in doubt about it, just playing along and pretending to believe, sometimes even almost believing it.. i lived in a bubble stuck between the love to my family and the knowledge that this church was wrong and dangerous. But even though knowing that, all scientologists i had met seemed like nice and happy people which made it even more difficult to not falter.
    What eventually cleared my doubts forever was joining the Sea Org at 14 with a part of my family. The childish and naive imaginations I had about that place where shattered by reality. Life became hell and all I've ever wanted since coming there was to leave and live a normal life. After over 1,5 years of beeing persistent about not wanting to be there, I managed to get routed out of the SO and return to the normal world.

    I had this urge to write about this multiple times throughout the years and now, several years later, after three hours of trying browsing around ex-scn sites- i finally got myself to write a tiny bit of my story.

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  2. Type4_PTS

    Type4_PTS Diamond Invictus SP

    Hey Secret!

  3. I told you I was trouble

    I told you I was trouble Suspended animation

    Hiya @secret

    I'm really pleased to hear that you managed to escape the madness and the meanness of the cult of scientology and hope you didn't have to lose anyone precious to do so.

    Tell us more or tell us nothing at all (it's totally up to you) ... but when you have time reading some of the stories here may help you to realise that you are not alone in your thoughts re scientology and you can always ask questions if you feel the need to.

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  4. FoTi

    FoTi Crusader

    Please write more. :heartflower:
  5. guRl

    guRl Patron with Honors

    Welcome Secret! Great to have you here! :budhug:
  6. Irayam

    Irayam Patron with Honors

    Welcome Secret!
    Never been in SO, always afraid to be regged for SO!
    I hope a very normal life for you.

  7. exbritscino

    exbritscino Patron with Honors

    Congratulations!!! :):):hi5:

    And welcome to the sane world........ :clapping::party:
  8. vumba

    vumba Danielle Chamberlin

    :handinhand: Welcome Secret. You will find a lot of loving support on this site, and many people can answer your questions should you have any. 'tis a brave thing you do! :heartflower:
  9. Enthetan

    Enthetan Master of Disaster

    One factor which contributed to my own exit, was the recognition that SO recruiters would eventually want my kids to join the SO, and would have Ethics pound on me if I gave them any "counter intention".
  10. Koot

    Koot Patron with Honors

    Thanks for the writeup and congrats on your persistence. Where were you at?
  11. anon1

    anon1 Patron

    I love new members! It's encouraging. I was where you are about a year ago (it was the lies that made me leave). Also born into it. Would love any inside info you might have as a recent defector! Did you read any of the books ie A PIece of Blue Sky, Bare Faced Messiah?
  12. AnonyMary

    AnonyMary Formerly Fooled - Finally Free

    Welcome, secret! I have a special place in my heart for those who were recruited into the Sea Org as :( children :( . They often have the toughest of times speaking up, anonymously or not. But you are not alone.

    And the subject of children being recruited has been voiced by critics online for many years. Here are just a few articles, in case you missed them

    Jeff Hawkins' Leaving Scientology blog

    The Sea Org – They’re coming for your children
    July 27, 2009
    Read on:

    Tony Ortega article @ Village Voice

    Scientology Kids: Fully Indoctrinated by 18
    December 20, 2011

    Read on:

    Article by Chris Shelton at Mike Rinder's blog

    Sea Org Recruiters – The Ultimate Merchants of Chaos
    March 9, 2014
    Read on:
  13. vumba

    vumba Danielle Chamberlin

  14. secret

    secret New Member

    Coming back here after a while and reading your replies, feels good seeing more people with similar experiences..

    If anybody is interested in hearing some more of my story or has questions, feel free to pm me and ask :)