Hey all. I have been trying to untangle the mess of the good and the bad in scn and i think im getting there. I need a bit of help though if you have the time... 1. is the word clearing you do on the meter (i never did it) any good ie i have heard it was amazing that some weird word comes up and you go back track I guess and find you know it from a different language or lifetime etc. I really don't know the process at all but am curious what is going on there? 2. when you go anaten or sleepy when reading - what is that? is it really an mu? looking up a word seems to help but maybe because its getting you to do something other than read stuff you find boring....any thoughts? 3. touch assist and locationals - are these putting you in a light trance so you feel better or do they actually make you feel better because you become more awake and cause? 4. did hubbard believe all his own shit? why did he audit all the time when he could see he was getting sicker? 5. is past life stuff all made up and if so why do you get wins on answering a question re a past life thing? Thanks - also is the com course that a lot of people say has helped them in life - not just a way to get you in a trance? I remember when i started many years ago i had trouble sleeping and after some intro auditing which didn't go too well i thought it weird - i saw the com course booklet and 'being there' was exactly my problem at night - i had a racing mind and couldn't stop thinking - so i did the course and first drill i nodded off. I remember after course feeling more relaxed etc and i got off to sleep really well that night and my sleep was much better (did nt last forever) - and i wondered if i went to 'sleep' at that point and have only just 'woken up'. is that by design do you think or was hubbard really correct about blowing off shit when confronting causing anaten?