I Am Not Anonymous

Discussion in 'Stories From Inside Scientology' started by Lynn Fountain Campbell, Jan 30, 2008.

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  1. Lynn Fountain Campbell

    Lynn Fountain Campbell Silver Meritorious Patron

    Thanks for this. And that's yet another aspect of the mindf*ck -- making you think it's mandatory to "tell all." I still might do it, as a writing exercise. Or as a cautionary tale for educational purposes. But I've gotten along fine so far without doing it. "Telling all" will not make it "as-is," contrary to what they'd have you believe.

    And who needs it to disappear anyway? "Those who forget history are condemned to repeat it." And who needs that?
     
  2. Gizmo

    Gizmo Rabble Rouser

    I find it true that I get what I put my attention on. Given that, I'd rather make the choice to put my attention on the good things in life rather than the horrors that have - and can - happen.

    I can't change what I had for breakfast. It is over. Tomorrow I can choose eggs instead of oatmeal. But, human that I am, I had to try that oatmeal before I knew I didn't like it.

    For me, life is like that. It took a few relationships - even a couple of marriages - before I learned what worked for me.

    Same with religions. I been through a few of them, too. I don't dwell on the misfortunes I brought on myself even though as with scn, I bought some seemingly clever ( they really weren't that clever ! ) lies.

    Now ? Hell, I just keep going - but I'm over being gullible or having a guru & for sure that being I'm responsible for my life it'll be only me that makes decisions about my life. That, for me, was a long hard lesson to learn, but has served me well once I learned it ( after all those years ).

    Lynn is one of those people I always look up to & feel inspired by.
     
  3. Lynn Fountain Campbell

    Lynn Fountain Campbell Silver Meritorious Patron

    Totally agree. And gurus are so 1970. :biggrin:

    Thanks for saying so. Since I'm not out there making videos all the time (and only raise hell occasionally), I'm never sure if anyone notices.
    :rose:
     
  4. Gizmo

    Gizmo Rabble Rouser

    You are most welcome !

    Oh, you are noticed ( in a VERY good way ! ) by many of us.

    Your shop being where it is gives me - and so many others - to keep plugging as best we can against the giant - and that giant is falling !

    Thank you for being there !
     
  5. I told you I was trouble

    I told you I was trouble Suspended animation

    Exactly ... the accumulated bumps and bruises of life and how we deal with them make us who we are, perhaps they give us depth and character and even an air of mystery (lol, or not).

    Whatever you decide to do I hope you enjoy the activity as you are doing it, it's only in recent years that I have trained myself to do that, I've been very "product oriented" for a long time (thanks cult) and while that isn't a bad thing (and I intend to stay that way) remembering to relax and enjoy the (I can't say journey or process, lol) procedure ... has become a new and cool addition to my life.

    :biggrin:
     
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  6. Lynn Fountain Campbell

    Lynn Fountain Campbell Silver Meritorious Patron

    Been meditating again.

    The more I think about it, the more I think my main story is not going to be about how I got into $cientology and what happened to me while I was there. I think the more relevant thing is how I got out after being in so deeply for 40+ years.

    I can actually answer your questions (thanks for helping me out by asking) in a few sentences or paragraphs -- though who knows what might happen once I start writing. Yeah. As I'm thinking about it, I might have to dredge up a lot of old memories. One of my clients just asked me if I'd ever thought about writing a memoir.

    Yep. Thought about it a lot. It's a lot of work, and maybe I'm too lazy to do it. Dredging up the memories -- that's a lot of work. Making them coherent enough to write down -- more work. Making the writing coherent enough for other people to read and understand -- whew! Fu*k it. I'll just take a nap. LOL!

    No, let me at least make an effort, since you took the time to ask.

    Beginning at the beginning -- going back to day one, the abbreviated version is that my Aunt Louise, who used to live not too far from the org in DC got in in the '50s and had a bad experience. Then my Aunt Vivian went to see what happened to her sister, and she happened to have a good experience. So she told me, my mother and my sister.

    OK, that's the beginning. I may or may not fill in the details later, if I have any noteworthy flashbacks. But I'm mostly -- still, after 13 years -- heaving sighs of relief and gratitude about being out. So that's where most of my attention is.
     
  7. Enthetan

    Enthetan Master of Disaster

    What was the "last straw", that caused you to finally decide to get out? Where there other "straws" preceding it?
     
  8. Awesome Rob

    Awesome Rob Patron

    I noticed, and I live thousands of miles away from your shop. Your courage is astounding and you should be proud.
     
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  9. Lynn Fountain Campbell

    Lynn Fountain Campbell Silver Meritorious Patron

    Coming up for air....

    Wow! The site looks great!

    For the past few months I've been busily minding my own business. I wrote a little ebook (~67 pages) in my business niche (holistic approach to beauty/anti-aging). It's a work in progress, so if you'd like to get a copy and/or help me test the technical aspects of the delivery platform I'm using (optional), just PM me.

    All inquiries/feedback appreciated.

    :heartflower:
     
  10. phenomanon

    phenomanon Gold Meritorious Patron

    :bighug:
     

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