I have been out of the SO since 2004.
There are times when I wish I could go back and change things, stop myself from joining but then I think of all of the people I've met.
Say what you will about the SO or Scientology in general but there are a lot of good people there that are dedicated to trying to help (there are also a lot of cookes and nuts but what are you gonna do). I could never say it was a total loss because some of my best friends from all over the country and the world have come out of it.
So I put up with some bad dreams every now and again. Fair trade.
Just so everyone knows I was one of the "If you don't let me go I'm going to kill myself" people and I was out within 24 hours, the FSO is funny that way! I couldn't face the route out lines and was afraid to blow for fear of being tracked and brought back or declared and interfering with some members of my family that work in a Scientology environment. I didn't actually want to kill myself but they can't risk someone offing themselves and bringing more scandal to the Scientology world especially in CW.
So I was one more of the here today and gone tomorrow. Couldn't say goodbye to anyone and I think only a small handful of people on the base were told what had happened to me.
I have heard since that the suicide method of getting out quick can now result in an instant declare but I'm not certain if that has been enforced.
My "getting out story" was pretty simple as I was never on public lines. I do know people that have gotten out since that were heavily on public lines and had to do some amazing things to get out, leaving spouses, everything they own etc.
I was never a hugely influential person within the SO. I was a working grunt, lower level management kind of guy.
I think as time goes on I will open up more. I'm not frightened of the church coming after me but I also don't want to take money out of my family's pocket by spilling the beans and you never know who's reading!
There are times when I wish I could go back and change things, stop myself from joining but then I think of all of the people I've met.
Say what you will about the SO or Scientology in general but there are a lot of good people there that are dedicated to trying to help (there are also a lot of cookes and nuts but what are you gonna do). I could never say it was a total loss because some of my best friends from all over the country and the world have come out of it.
So I put up with some bad dreams every now and again. Fair trade.
Just so everyone knows I was one of the "If you don't let me go I'm going to kill myself" people and I was out within 24 hours, the FSO is funny that way! I couldn't face the route out lines and was afraid to blow for fear of being tracked and brought back or declared and interfering with some members of my family that work in a Scientology environment. I didn't actually want to kill myself but they can't risk someone offing themselves and bringing more scandal to the Scientology world especially in CW.
So I was one more of the here today and gone tomorrow. Couldn't say goodbye to anyone and I think only a small handful of people on the base were told what had happened to me.
I have heard since that the suicide method of getting out quick can now result in an instant declare but I'm not certain if that has been enforced.
My "getting out story" was pretty simple as I was never on public lines. I do know people that have gotten out since that were heavily on public lines and had to do some amazing things to get out, leaving spouses, everything they own etc.
I was never a hugely influential person within the SO. I was a working grunt, lower level management kind of guy.
I think as time goes on I will open up more. I'm not frightened of the church coming after me but I also don't want to take money out of my family's pocket by spilling the beans and you never know who's reading!