Helena Handbasket
Gold Meritorious Patron
Doing Something With The Tech
For many years now, I've wanted to "do something with the tech". I tried to join staff at six different groups, both in and out of the church, only to be turned down every time. (In one instance I was accepted only to be offered a post I felt I could not do. In another, it was only as an unpaid volunteer, where I would have had to move and pay all my own expenses.)
I felt I had a calling to help, but it's been made clear to me that my help is not valued.
So I'm giving up. In this case the right thing to do IS nothing, because no one is prepared to let me in.
I have Asperger's Syndrome. That's a fancy way of saying I'm not a people person, and in a people-oriented field such as org work, that puts me at a distinct disadvantage. (If you're not sure what Asperger's Syndrome is, think of Spock and Barclay and Data and Sheldon and Leonard and Raj and Howard but not Penny all put together.)
I could go back to my old field, computer programming, and do well in it. But to grow as a person, I have to get out of my comfort zone, and do something I'm NOT good at. Besides, this is a job that needs to be done. I'm not looking to get rich doing org work, but even the lowliest Sea Org recruit gets food and berthing and cigarette money. I've never been guaranteed even that.
I've been generous in the past, but where has it got me? Only disappointment. The last time this happened I did everything possible to help, only to be offered nothing more than help loading my things into my car so I could leave. I'm almost ashamed to say how much I did for this group. http://www.gocomics.com/endtown/2013/07/17
So I'm taking a vacation from the tech. I don't want any training, any auditing, any post at all, or any contact with any place delivering services for at least 5 years. Maybe longer.
The world is a mess? Fine. Let it be a mess. It's not my problem any more.
Helena
For many years now, I've wanted to "do something with the tech". I tried to join staff at six different groups, both in and out of the church, only to be turned down every time. (In one instance I was accepted only to be offered a post I felt I could not do. In another, it was only as an unpaid volunteer, where I would have had to move and pay all my own expenses.)
I felt I had a calling to help, but it's been made clear to me that my help is not valued.
So I'm giving up. In this case the right thing to do IS nothing, because no one is prepared to let me in.
I have Asperger's Syndrome. That's a fancy way of saying I'm not a people person, and in a people-oriented field such as org work, that puts me at a distinct disadvantage. (If you're not sure what Asperger's Syndrome is, think of Spock and Barclay and Data and Sheldon and Leonard and Raj and Howard but not Penny all put together.)
I could go back to my old field, computer programming, and do well in it. But to grow as a person, I have to get out of my comfort zone, and do something I'm NOT good at. Besides, this is a job that needs to be done. I'm not looking to get rich doing org work, but even the lowliest Sea Org recruit gets food and berthing and cigarette money. I've never been guaranteed even that.
I've been generous in the past, but where has it got me? Only disappointment. The last time this happened I did everything possible to help, only to be offered nothing more than help loading my things into my car so I could leave. I'm almost ashamed to say how much I did for this group. http://www.gocomics.com/endtown/2013/07/17
So I'm taking a vacation from the tech. I don't want any training, any auditing, any post at all, or any contact with any place delivering services for at least 5 years. Maybe longer.
The world is a mess? Fine. Let it be a mess. It's not my problem any more.
Helena
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