I am finding out that it is important to do some fact finding after one leaves Scientology. It requires doing a lot of research about the founder of Scientology and the evil cult itself. I have a few friends that never "looked". The engramic implant L Ron Hubbard installed successfully into some members subconscious through repeated suggestions and hypnosis has kept some people from "looking" at the INTERNET. I myself felt fear when I "looked". I thought Scientology was coming after me and would "know" I looked. Now - where did I get that BELIEF? It was implanted into my subconscious mind by the found of Scientology - L Ron Hubbard through his rhetorical writings and the repeater technique. Very clever that fat fucker - L Ron Hubbard! Well, some of that paranoia is very real. Scientology does go after people as revealed in the hundreds of books and documentaries out now for public viewing. But - I actually felt someone would come into my room and bust me big time and I would be doomed to losing the eternity of freedom - Scientology's version of hell and damnation. The other thing I BELIEVED is that I would die of pneumonia after I read all about Xenu, the Body Thetans and Clusters. What a crock of SHIT! No one came and I did not even get a cough or a sneeze. I did roll on the floor laughing my ass off though. LOL! People actually believe this??? Well, I guess L Ron Hubbard was right - if you spend enough money and time into something - (GET INVESTED HEAVILY) you will DIE to be right and many OT's get sick and DIE. I have personally witnessed it. So has every Scientologist! It is so absurd to me now that I believed this crap. I can see now that I was under this trick and scam of Scientological influence and Hubbard's clever methods of mind control. I feels really good to not have to "believe" in anything. I am truly FREE. I am finding that the more truth you read and wrap your mind around - the more you heal from the devastating effects of Scientology. Scientology is nothing but a science of MIND FUCKERY! Any lurkers out there - I highly recommend to do your own research and read everything you can about L Ron Hubbard's REAL life (not the lies Scientology $ells), the truth about what Scientology is actually doing to people, the truth about how the money is spent, the truth about how David Miscavige lies and beats the Sea Org staffers, the truth on how David Miscavige lives a lavish lifestyle while staff suffer in poverty and everything about mind control, hypnosis and cults. Study up on Rhetorical Writing and how Hubbard used it to trap people. How Scientology uses the "religion" card to trap people as well. How convenient it is that Scientology can use the Religious Cloak to hide its crimes. Very clever. I highly recommend that any LURKER'S out there start your healing process NOW NOW NOW! Please - get the TRUTH about Scientology and GO FREE. You can heal from this trauma from the cult of Scientology and experience TRUE FREEDOM for real!!