I know the feeling..being conned so greatly and deeply..and having believed in it so whole heartedly at one point..........it pulls the rug out from under you..........what can I believe in next? will that be a con as well? will I know it when it is? Hang in there. Interested to know..what did the show producers say? Ive thought about contacting them...but I knew many of them briefly as kids( our parents new each other more)..and I reached out and they dont really seemed interested in anyone's life or story besides their own.....it does make me think a bit. as matter of fact they led me to a page that attacked me...and basically shut me out and questioned me as if I was fraud(even when I sent them pictures)...it seemed very Scientology like to me...was surprising! I never existed to them and they could care less, reminded me of being in...I guess the church gets some scoreboard points for that one lol if all my experiences taught me anything..its not to give a crap about what others think and do your own thing and have compassion for all around me while doing it.