Not everyone had the wide eyed wonderfulness of everything in & about scientology being so incredibly & immensely wonderful it was just too much to even to put into words. How about the children who had the chain locker experience of the Apollo courtesy of Doctor Hubbard. Did they write success stories ? Have they gone through life bragging to others how they braved that ? Well, does anyone else have things - or maybe just A thing - that bugs them about what they now know happened in the cult ? The circumstances of the death of Doctor Hubbard ? No autopsy on ' religious ' grounds. Anyone ever hear that one before as part of scn ? A next day cremation of his old fat ass ? When Mary Sue passed no mention was made of it. Where is she shown in the history of scn ? Gee, are there even any experiences in scn that weren't " good experiences " ? Or was is all good ?