Hi!
I just read your story and I can relate, I was FSC for about two years; made to Clear and worked on CMO, Finances, and other posts; I had the same curious about the upper levels due I needed to do them see? But when I read the OT III I was so afraid at the begining to drop the body and never being able to come back that I made a special video will (testament) just in case is true. Obviously is not lol
But what an Idiot I was to believe the SCI FI things, honestly I must admit several audit were fantastic, still feeling good and shinny but the rest is pure crap, and I am not trying to say the Tech is not good, of course some of it is pure gold, but the political and organizational structure is so bad.
I remember the day I decided to leave I was confined to a cold office and kept by an insane kid, other members comming by and visiting me to say crap on my face, I remember a girl told me:
- I read all your pc folders and I can not understand you.
I answered to that: So you should die because are confidential and a pc should not read a Clear folder, anyway I said, you will start to see the things different from now on.
She was amazed and coulnt believe she didn't drop dead on the fact I was telling her she just read Pre-OT materials (secret and heavy stuff) but well what a way to find the scam.
I was for weeks dishwashing and cleaning bathrooms, floors, walls, repainting buildings and just kept waiting my Sec Check auditor (but where I am there is no chance to have a Clear Auditor) so I didnt get one, after a month making renovations and heavy MEST work, they decided to let me go. I selpt on the floor for almost a month, no food and not being able to make even a phone call to my family, it was just a fucking prision camp. Some times after two days and cero sleep nights working renovating and cleaning buildings, some ass just decided to use me to renovate some old Org and got me wake up at two am in the morning for remaking a Wall. I was no sleeping, not eating and not drinking water for almost two weeks, and this ass wanted me to go out in the night and make a Wall?
I had enough and punched him on the nose, he was so much bleading that I was happy. So l went straight to the Berthing door and got out.
I am fine now but I hope more people (good people) get out from that shit. I am now SP declared and honestly I couln't care less.
See ya!