Hi there, I haven't been on this site for some years now since leaving scientology. I was born and raised in scientology. When I left scientology, I was very open about my thoughts on the abusive culture of scientology. Shortly after, I was shunned by all of my scientology friends that I grew up with. At the time it hurt a lot. But it doesn't really bother me anymore, due to the fact that I never really felt that I had a compassionate relationship with any of them - not the kind of friend that would have your back and support you in times of need. I never felt that I could rely on any of them and there was a lot of snitching between ex cadets. Now days if I pass by any of the ex cadets, they walk past me as if I was thin air - very bizarre sensation. I did have one best friend that I grew up with. I've known her from the age of 2. Recently, I've reconnected with her, but her insensitive comments and lack of situational empathy has become more and more unbearable. I tried to confront her with that and told her that I didn't appreciate the way that she was speaking to me and that it was very hurtful. She then told me that I was ''sensitive'' and ''enturbulating''. Her comments were extremely hurtful and cold. Then she wanted to disconnect the friendship. I tried to convince her that I didn't think it was fair on me to just drop me like yesterdays socks and that it's not right to treat people like that. I managed to keep the friendship. But her comments have since then become nastier and colder with time, and also using vulnerability to deliberately hurt me. The abusive nature in the way that she speaks to me is very unbearable, despite me walking on eggshells trying to maintain a friendship that's abusive in nature. I've never had a friend (non scientologist) that speaks to me in such a nasty fashion. It disturbs me deeply and has literally made my body shake from the shock of the way that she speaks to me and treats me. It gets to a point where it really disgusts me. So, I've come to terms with the fact that I just don't think it is possible to maintain a friendship with a scientologist because the reality on companionship, love, and empathy is just too far apart and by me trying to hold on to such a friendship is just hurting me more than doing any good. Unfortunately, I think the brainwashing with time has made her a very cold person. But also, being away from that environment for so long might have contributed to me ''forgeting'' the very abusive nature of scientology, so I might have not realised at the time how abusive it was. So I'm just curious to hearing about others that have tried to reconnect with old scientology friends. How did that go?