is that 20 million debt, or 20 million income?
Or maybe it´s a 2 followed by a lot of lost zeros...
Your thread is very appropriate, not only because of the hole left after leaving Scn., but because I consider one of the biggest abuses in Scn. is to be disabused to keep looking for spiritual solutions and paths, once having been betrayed so strongly. Many people simply give their backs to spirituality once leaving, having been so thoroughly betrayed. It was one of the biggest Hubbardian achievements, to make us believe it is the only and the only workable path, which it is NOT.
For me personally, this board, opened my eyes, to many possibilities, I did an Idenics session, that helped, I looked a bit into Knowledgism, I read Tolle, which I loved, I also read Newton´s second book, which gave me a lot of insight.
My first step is regaining, my own sovereignity, or call it whatever. I found Covey´s books (The 8th habit, First things First, The 7 habits) very appropriate. I´m ellaborating for already 2 months on my own personal constitution. Basically it is something like the American constitution, but your own set of principles. It goes far beyond a Code of Honor, besides, that one was his, not ours.
I´m just checking the main point, where do I want to go?
I call it the WALL of WALLS. Let me explain. Basically administration is moving a group of people up a ladder to a defined goal, but where we put that ladder, on which wall it leans, is leadership. First of all, one needs to decide which wall is the right for ONESELF. We took all this admin scale mumbo jumbo, as the truth, while it was all aligned to Hubbard´s goals, and not ours. (I´m glad I never finished a complete admin scale while in). I believe the most important exercise is to decide one´s direction, and from the choice of so many walls, there is for sure, one wall or a few, the most important ones, which is very personal for every person. So, I´m in the middle of that exercise, but it has no urgency, though a lot of IMPORTANCE. Another thing, I learned, is to distinguish between urgencies and importances, I was so brainwashed into living in the urgency (a very Scientological think), that I wouldn´t really value or see the importances. All this is being reflected in the written exercise of my personal constitution. Some times, I don´t write a sentence for a month, some other´s I re-read, no hurry. I can only strongly recomend for everybody to write his/her own set of very personal principles. To give it the form of a constitution, makes it only more fun! Not in the sense of formality or legal language, but in the sense of being able to clarify one´s own ideas, regarding importances.
This has all to do, with living, loving, leaving a legacy. I strongly recomend you Covey, just from an administrative viewpoint, to clean up the Hubbardian admin model.
I also enjoy a lot to go an unstructured path. I spend a lot of the week, just meditating, I mean just thinking or letting things come to me. This is sometimes structured, connected to writing, and most of the times, completely unstructured. Thinking was something frowned upon in the cult, but it is helpful. Sometimes my ideas just wander, or I contemplate something which I never had contemplated before ever. It just dawns on me. After that I write it up.
I believe the more unstructured, the better. Don´t look for a pre-made path, better find your own one. In the end, all answers are within you, and ONLY there.
For me personally, the two major recomendations are: Covey, Dr. Newton, and Tolle as a read. And as therapies, I can recomend Idenics, and Knowledgism also looks properly researched to me, though I haven´t come yet to it. There is a great card to choose from, no more menus!
I don´t see also a problem with some Scientology processing that is valuable.
