StickbyMe
Patron with Honors
So I have this beautiful wog girlfriend who I am very happy with. It's sort of been my policy for a while to not mention my Scientology history to the girls I date. I didn't care when I first got out of the SO, but as Scn's public image gets worse and worse, I've tried to edit that part of my life out. My being here on this forum proves that I cannot fully pretend it never happened, nor do I want to as I have some wonderful memories, and I was lucky enough to not have some of the experiences others here have had (spent most of my SO time off base, so I always had my own room, cooked my own meals, etc.)
She gets calls from Scientology herself from time to time (apparently she bought a book years ago), and I've never told her about my past involvement. My family is, for the most part, equally willing to edit Scientology out of all our lives, and they are aware that I've withheld this information from her.
Part of me wants to be more honest about this (the only real lie I've told her in the last year), but there's another part of me that... It's not that I think she'll leave me or even be weirded out by it, actually she called them Christian Scientologists, proving her unawareness of what the cult actually stands for. But I just am worried that talking about this part of my life will dredge up a lot of emotions, and that I'll have to talk about it more often than I'd like. I'm comfortable with a forum like this because I can be anonymous and just not log on if I'm not into it, be she will certainly have questions. The man I was when I joined the Sea Org and the man I am now are not that different, but to an outside observer, I think they would seem very inconsistent.
Anyway, I was wondering if anybody else has edited Scientology from their life history? Can you offer some insight? Am I kidding myself about this?
She gets calls from Scientology herself from time to time (apparently she bought a book years ago), and I've never told her about my past involvement. My family is, for the most part, equally willing to edit Scientology out of all our lives, and they are aware that I've withheld this information from her.
Part of me wants to be more honest about this (the only real lie I've told her in the last year), but there's another part of me that... It's not that I think she'll leave me or even be weirded out by it, actually she called them Christian Scientologists, proving her unawareness of what the cult actually stands for. But I just am worried that talking about this part of my life will dredge up a lot of emotions, and that I'll have to talk about it more often than I'd like. I'm comfortable with a forum like this because I can be anonymous and just not log on if I'm not into it, be she will certainly have questions. The man I was when I joined the Sea Org and the man I am now are not that different, but to an outside observer, I think they would seem very inconsistent.
Anyway, I was wondering if anybody else has edited Scientology from their life history? Can you offer some insight? Am I kidding myself about this?