Re: How many people went type III (ie. had a Psychotic Break) in your org?
There are things worse than death, in my view. That is the loss of one's mind or living in a mind that has turned against you and that you can no longer dispense with. Scios view themselves as immortals trapped here, trying to make better of the hellishness. To this extent they wouldn't even consider they would find relief in death, though it's one of your rights as a human being, not to suffer and be persecuted after such point. Pretty insidious programming that.
The Type III aspect that keeps showing up seems to come from self make-wrongs that one is eternally invited to do. Almost everyone who goes off the rails has just been through too many 'handlings' or situations where they negated or invalidate their own basic rightness. Scientology will say it's O/Ws or Withholds that make a person go insane. Naw, people who are perfectly willing and feel justified in doing evil have no derailment from such. They plod right along into the future like the Energizer bunny. It's those who are experiencing the dark night of the soul and remorse and regret and not able to confront the harm the've done who DIE. They come to a complete STOP. Scientology eats these most vulnerable people, and takes their money to do so.
I have personally seen, over and over again, the introspection that destroys an individual. The most disheartening cases I saw were among freshly arrived staff in Clearwater. Over the yrs I watched 2 girls join the Sea Org who were below the age of 20. I saw them mentally and physically decline with each visit to the land base. I saw it in staff being made to retread the lengthy SHSBC after having been given an indication they were somehow out ethics. I myself, as a 25 yr old, was told I was out ethics because my finance of 5 yrs whom I cohabited with, lent me money for intensives. What crap. For different times, you were handed different reasons why you were a 'bad egg'. The admonishments were not just given out as opinions, but things you now had go and do a 'remedy' for.... And for something you never originally considered was wrong in the first place; all the while being contrite that you had succumbed to such lowliness enroute to becoming a pure and enlightened being. Too much of Scientology 'think' became a burden to the soul.
I think the most gruesome injustice happens when a case cracker handling cannot fix the thing wrong. The troubled believer takes to terrible self-flagellation and starts rummaging through their past lives for misdeeds. He's already adopted the notion that they are the ONLY reason he would not be getting better. When they cannot successfully find their true reason WHY....the one big overt...and confess to this....the one they are SURE, if located, will bring them the relief...they start going downhill. Often this is the point of finally leaving the cherch, when they start to innately feel something is WRONG. For me, accepting the constant making wrong of self, became physical. It was as if I, in my position held here, spiritually, in the middle of a lifetime, was being flushed away in a devouring swirl of attacking energies coming from somewhere dark. Somewhere I was helpless to stand against. I can't accurately describe the insanity, the malaise. Maybe like this photo of being eaten by malevolent swarms so nothing's left but the skeleton.
From 'Indiana Jones'
I am of the opinion that too much incessant invalidating of the self can start to erase the self. Beware the invitation. Do not accept. It seems if you
think you do NOT have the right to take up a space in the game, it may be taken away from you. It is a TOUGH game we play here. We DO have a
right to occupy our space.