Out Effix
Out Ethics Ex Ethics Officer
good post and thank you.....The divorces in Scientology are really unbelieveable. I did not know this was not normal...until I met some people from other "churches" and they don't know many people who get divorced ....but in Scientology - divorce is SOP...Out Ethics, I commend you for your recent posts. Good for you! Thank you for taking the time and energy to speak out -- and educate!
The healing process takes (seemingly) forever, but with every passing day that is further away from that cult, the better. I am not sure how long a person has to be in to "qualify" for being deeply effected. It sounds like you were effected deeply though, not because of getting so much auditing, but for being indoctrinated as a staff member. An EO. I can see that being a really difficult situation. So, I am sorry you had to experience what you did, and I'm so glad to hear you made your way out, and in the way that you did too. You read the truth. You saw the truth, and you discovered how the whole machine runs, including the psychological mindfuck. Both the COB and Hubbard are/were not just narcissists, but sociopaths.
I was an OES and I feel for you. I was so "ethical" and everyone saw me that way. I too messed up and then publicly humiliated, a couple of times. Then I flirted with someone else while I was in a relationship and got very sick (and of course that was totally my fault). In turn, that was why I lost my house and all my belongings (all "awarded" to my 2D by the chaplain). But, at least I got away.
The Chaplain and EO want the Scientologist to get the divorce over with without any courts or HE& R - so if you were naughty - you will pay and pay and pay....I know - it happened to me too....
Guilt is a built in mechanism in all human beings....Scientology capitalizes on it...
If you do something wrong - it is amazing how the Tech leads you to punishing yourself....hard!
I know of a Scientologist whose wife divorced him.....after she was caught having an affair .... and he had to pay her 1/2 of his income for eternity....
He blamed himself that she had the affair.....he was always gone....
so it all depends if you feel guilty or not...
Scientology teaches you that "you pulled it in" and this fucks with peoples minds...it is so cruel...
if you feel bad about a mistake you made - you will offer yourself up as a martyr....and hang yourself on the cross...or hang yourself...as some Scientologists have done
Other churches do not act like this. My friend - who is catholic - just goes to confession in a booth - for FREE. Tells their sins to a Priest - who does not see who the person is...nice and confidential...just get it off your chest. The worst thing that comes out of that is the person may have to say a few hail Mary's and Our Fathers...but THAT IS IT! Done!
Scientology - will not only make you pay for transgressions in this lifetime...it will also make you pay for transgressions you think you did in past lives too...which is all fabricated by you and your imagination...
Scientology MAA's are trained at Flag to comb the folders and find something the Scientologist did to make them pay FLAG - this happened to quite a few people. One guy had an affair when he was 18 with a married woman...he got that overt off and years later - FLAG picked open that scab and wanted him to pay... he left Flag and never went back...eventually left Scientology and I think he got declared (which is a badge of honor).
Flag - what a bunch of Fuckers!
Scientology is Fucking Cruel and Fucking crazy!
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