Study Tech ... just my 0.00001 cent
I finally finished reading this thread as well as several other interconnected. I was looking particularly for anything that could have been already said in regard to Clay Demos, on which I'd just gotten a realization, and I found it on your earlier thread in both
@HelluvaHoax! post :
and in
@Free Being Me post (from the "P.I.S.S.E.D." thread):
I'll just add that working at replicating exactly,
in clay, any of LRH's concepts, it seems to me that we are in fact
re-creating them, putting them in the physical world, thus
his concepts become
ours more strongly than just understanding them intellectually = we become "him the creator", as clones. Which then goes beyond the simple concept replicated.
Although, as I've already said somewhere in this board, I couldn't stand so many wrong attributions from Sups to hypothetical misunderstood words (when in fact I was protesting on materials awfully translated to spanish), which led me to study the auditor levels in original language thus needing to become a fast-flow student (FFS = Finally Free to Study !) I still viewed the Study Tech as a whole as the most valuable and fruitful experience I had.
MB words on one of his
posts from the Million Years in Hell thread describe it quite exactly:
I'd never before then been able to study or read for more than one or two hours straight without pauses, let alone a whole 12-hour day at the academy (plus usually another 4 hours at night when back at home).
So I was like, WOW, the TECH indeed works!
Now I know (and thanks also to you all) that the highly focused trance feeling came mostly from more insidious, other-determined workings upon my mind. I won't affirm that the last leaf on the tree has finally fallen (although several other clingings fell with it, I still have to delve into the "pledged allegiance guilt trip + fear" that eventually comes and goes ...) but at least I think I can see the difference when I happen to feel again as above described in MB's quote.
And then go for a walk ... or whatever
(This below goes a bit beyond the scope of this thread, IMO, but anyway):
1. Thank you very much for mentioning this book, as it would seem to confirm many of the findings I am presently bringing together to examine in depth my own behaviour/beliefs.
I have been reviewing the realizations I'd had while being audited, and stumbled upon one in particular, where the "AHA" moment was really weird to me at that moment (I was supposedly remembering a "past life"): "Maybe I've just seen all of this in a movie though and identified myself with the action". I was really puzzled but apparently this brought about the closure of the process being run, in due form. I'd never gone back to it until now, as I didn't question particularly or seriously all the past lives subject up to now, thanks to some conversations on the OOBE thread (TYVM,
@lotus ).
2. I see both subjects (past lives + being "exterior") as deeply related, in the line of my own quest.
My research is mostly an inner one, based on memories, personal backgrounds and reasoning, but any other formal research as yours usually are, will assuredly be of great interest, should you chose to write about "being exterior", to expand its scope and possibly ground it some more. So, thanks in advance for all your working.