Voltaire's Child
Fool on the Hill
I had wanted to do or be certain things and found that some of this was scoffed at in CofS. Since I was a fervent member, I ended up not doing these things. Now, I'm not saying that I would have gone and gotten this training- understand, when I was 18, I was getting no help from my folks and had to figure out the big bad world myself. Who knows what I would have done since I was more or less on my own? But still, I had a dream and it was quashed by CofS. I think other people may have also had goals and dreams that were quashed and scoffed by CofS and I'm inviting you to discuss them, if you like.
Mine was that I really wanted to work with disturbed children. I loved the writings of Torey Hayden and the book No Language but a Cry by Richard D'Ambrosio. When I was in CofS, I never met one single Scn'ist on staff to whom I confided this goal who didn't roll their eyes and scoff at it. This should have been a tip off right there as to what kind of place I was dealing with but I didn't get it for the longest time. I mean, if CofS and Scn'ists were what they said they were, wouldn't you think that they'd at least say something like "Hey, you could do this or this process." I mean, it would still have been Scn-centered but it would have been consistent at least. But no, everyone thought this was a terrible idea. That somehow this was wrong or bad. Like what- these children should have been tossed away? I mean, jeez, WTF?
This has been on my mind for years, and I always managed to kind of push this to the back of my mind because of the discouragement but yes, it's something I thought of doing that was roundly negated and naysayed by CofS. I wonder how many other people had ideas and goals and dreams that were not illegal or unethical or immoral- just things they wanted to do or achieve or be or think- that were similarly treated?
The phrase "the road not taken" may apply here. BUT, while I am very aware of all the stuff people didn't get to do because they were immersed in CofS, on this thread I was kind of looking for dreams that were ridiculed and discouraged as opposed to things we didn't have time to do because we were too busy slaving on staff or stuck in the org or AO doing services all the time. God knows there's zillions of those, too.
Mine was that I really wanted to work with disturbed children. I loved the writings of Torey Hayden and the book No Language but a Cry by Richard D'Ambrosio. When I was in CofS, I never met one single Scn'ist on staff to whom I confided this goal who didn't roll their eyes and scoff at it. This should have been a tip off right there as to what kind of place I was dealing with but I didn't get it for the longest time. I mean, if CofS and Scn'ists were what they said they were, wouldn't you think that they'd at least say something like "Hey, you could do this or this process." I mean, it would still have been Scn-centered but it would have been consistent at least. But no, everyone thought this was a terrible idea. That somehow this was wrong or bad. Like what- these children should have been tossed away? I mean, jeez, WTF?
This has been on my mind for years, and I always managed to kind of push this to the back of my mind because of the discouragement but yes, it's something I thought of doing that was roundly negated and naysayed by CofS. I wonder how many other people had ideas and goals and dreams that were not illegal or unethical or immoral- just things they wanted to do or achieve or be or think- that were similarly treated?
The phrase "the road not taken" may apply here. BUT, while I am very aware of all the stuff people didn't get to do because they were immersed in CofS, on this thread I was kind of looking for dreams that were ridiculed and discouraged as opposed to things we didn't have time to do because we were too busy slaving on staff or stuck in the org or AO doing services all the time. God knows there's zillions of those, too.