I was thinking the same thing.
I have been reading a lot of things on this site. I was never a staff member of any sort, was too scary for me. I trained up to class V auditor and co audited through the grades. I never got the gains LRH talked about. Went on the Freewinds on a case crack. They really didn't find anything, so I just did a course. I was so stressed on that trip, I blew my adrenals and thyroid. I was so afraid of not getting off the ship, I finished my course in record time. I was a pleaser. My stats were high, and most of the time I had good indicators, so I got very little help with my discomfort. I still have trouble when I go to Miami for other things. Through all my co audits, I never saw an f/n that looked like the simulator or films. I guess I faked it with my pc's good indicators! I felt like such a fraud. I finally got enough when a friend sent me to ethics for some of the spiritual help websites I went to. Never could admit that I was doing something wrong.
I guess what I am writing about is, that I never heard anything about what went on in this thread. I wonder how many people like me just missed it. I was always careful not to natter or tell anyone my uneasiness about the church. I actually blew Flag. I really felt like a criminal. It was like a movie with them chasing me up to my car and me fleeing them. It was awful. And I felt like I actually was doing something wrong. Forl years I have kept this to myself, not even telling my husband or closest friends.
I actually refinanced my homel to pay off my credit cards. I needed help, and tried so hard to get it. I also have probably $18,000 on account at various places. You can't sell the briefing course you know. I have been out for about 4 years, and still get calls, which I won't answer. Don't you just love caller ID!!
Anyway, I am so sorry you all went through what you did, and I hope the church pays for all the harm they have dealt out. I am also sorry, that I was so wishy washy, and didn't learn to say no. But truly they are so good at what they are trained to do=get you and keep you. Thanks for listening