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Farcyde, I think you summarized the basics pretty well.
I was at AOLA year after year doing the stupid Birthday Game to get the Universe Corps to deliver the upper levels. Yeh, right. We won 3 years in a row and ended up with ONE auditor. No trips to Flag, either.
There is no reason, no excuse for the horrible staff pay and horrible working conditions.
But YOUR intentions were sincere. You still have that. Don't ever lose that.
As for the OT levels... like I said, I worked at AOLA - 8 of the 9 years on staff. Anyone who reads OT-3 for the first time is shockingly disappointed. THe first thought is - You're FUCKING KIDDING! That's IT?!?! And you think, what a scam! If you still want to do them, of course, there are those who would deliver them and it wouldn't cost you what it does at the CULT, but you've already been through that - paying money and giving your lfie for nothing of value back - so I advise you to wait. Read. Discuss things. Take a new viewpoint altogether, one that analyzes. Go back to the things you know in your heart are important and you will know the right way to go.
You have NO idea how many people blow after reading the OT-3 materials. It is called the Non Interference Zone because it is such a letdown to read the stupid Xenu story. But the NIZ is just one more of so many marketing ploys.
To be able to separate the things you had real wins on from those that you didn't will take time. It will take time to compare modern philosophies and techniques, to get readjusted to understanding that Scns are not superior beings, to start ot think in terms that are not Scn terms.
You'll be alright, mate.
But this time around, use your mind fully, don't leave the ones you love behind. Because the only real route to spiritual freedom is through love and compassion. But there are lots of routes. Take your time. Don't let anyone else decide for you again. Only you can walk in your shoes and make the best decisions of what is best for you.
Sheila
I've never heard that many people left after reading OT 3. One has seen the odd tale here and other places. You have even approx valid stats?
Also they would have done OT 2 which IMO is even weirder, without
leaving.