Veda
Sponsor
Emma -
Do todays events with the cook trial and the eastgate charges dropped confirm your decision to go, be done with the fucking dragged out unending clusterfuck?
I hope so.
Peace out, Homey!
What a weird post.
What the ?
Emma -
Do todays events with the cook trial and the eastgate charges dropped confirm your decision to go, be done with the fucking dragged out unending clusterfuck?
I hope so.
Peace out, Homey!
What a weird post.
What the ?
It's all very disappointing. And yes it does seem to me to be an unending clusterfuck. Just when you think you've gained some ground the cult has a way of clawing it back again.
It's not all in vain though. The Eastgate charges might have been dropped but she never "proved her innocence". She's as guilty as hell and everyone knows it.
Debbie Cook was never going to be a "Scientology destroyer", but her new years eve email had a big impact. They can't change that or turn back the clock or pretend it didn't happen. We now have her sworn testimony of torture in the CoS and that is huge all by itself.
This fight will drag on & on for years. I must have heard 100 times over the last 12 years "THIS IS IT! THIS WILL KILL THE CULT!" but it's never true and I doubt it ever will be true. Time & public inoculation will eventually take it toll on Scientology (it already has) but I doubt it will ever be eradicated completely.
What a weird post.
What the ?
agreed
It's all very disappointing. And yes it does seem to me to be an unending clusterfuck. Just when you think you've gained some ground the cult has a way of clawing it back again.
It's not all in vain though. The Eastgate charges might have been dropped but she never "proved her innocence". She's as guilty as hell and everyone knows it.
Debbie Cook was never going to be a "Scientology destroyer", but her new years eve email had a big impact. They can't change that or turn back the clock or pretend it didn't happen. We now have her sworn testimony of torture in the CoS and that is huge all by itself.
This fight will drag on & on for years. I must have heard 100 times over the last 12 years "THIS IS IT! THIS WILL KILL THE CULT!" but it's never true and I doubt it ever will be true. Time & public inoculation will eventually take it toll on Scientology (it already has) but I doubt it will ever be eradicated completely.
What a weird post.
What the ?
While I believe you are absolutely correct about some form of Scientology continuing for a long time, at its most fundamental level, Scientology has been destroyed.It's all very disappointing. And yes it does seem to me to be an unending clusterfuck. Just when you think you've gained some ground the cult has a way of clawing it back again.
It's not all in vain though. The Eastgate charges might have been dropped but she never "proved her innocence". She's as guilty as hell and everyone knows it.
Debbie Cook was never going to be a "Scientology destroyer", but her new years eve email had a big impact. They can't change that or turn back the clock or pretend it didn't happen. We now have her sworn testimony of torture in the CoS and that is huge all by itself.
This fight will drag on & on for years. I must have heard 100 times over the last 12 years "THIS IS IT! THIS WILL KILL THE CULT!" but it's never true and I doubt it ever will be true. Time & public inoculation will eventually take it toll on Scientology (it already has) but I doubt it will ever be eradicated completely.
How is discussion on the potential hat and database turnover of ESMB to new person(s) going?
The discussion continues. It is now a discussion of how, not if.
Great good news.
Yesterdays' period of no access to the server brought home to me just how much I would miss the board if it were not kept going.
Thanks, Ethercat and guys!
It is a funny thing, but I have a tendency to log into ESMB as daily habit and get a bit anxious if I don't. I am in a very real sense addicted.
Now it is not necessarily a bad addiction, but right now I am supposed to be sketching out an essay on Ezra Pound and Imagism. But here I am bearing my soul.
The board being down and my resulting undertone of anxiety brought it home to me that I need to change this, I accept that I am an addictive personality, but I am sure that I need to wean myself off of the need to stay connected to the who engrossing scientology game even though I have changed teams, it is still same essential 'need' that is being fed by this maintained connection.
I was just thinking about this, I am passionate about the T.S. Eliots, the Ezra Pounds, Yeats, Brezeska, Vorticism and the whole modernist movement. once I get the money and another book out of the way I aim to do my MA in Medieval and Renaissance studies.
So what the fuck am I doing faffing around within the ruins of my former life in a nutty cult run by a psychopathic midget?
I suppose it is at least in part the same reason that once successful family men and women sleep in cold damp doorways and give blow jobs to perverts in order to pay for their next fix.
I am still trying figure this 'need' thing out.
Ethercat marked the moment of my exiting Scientology, maybe she will now mark my exiting the more peripheral yet no less seductive ex-scientology movement?
Good post, LA. Thank you.
Also, it's a good cause, some call it activism.
Hi, JohnAnchovie!
It is the two that I am trying to separate out, addiction and activism.
Activism is out there in newspapers, tv protesting and the like, this message board stuff can, for me, it may be an entirely different experience for others, has become a comfort zone. I am not willing to move on, to let go (as I have advised plenty of other people to do, bit of pots and kettles going on there)
ESMB has been fantastic. It has allowed me to work out my confused thoughts, it was very important for reforming relationships with former comrades and allowed a bit of a cushioning effect. But I needed to be weaned off a long time ago. If you will excuse the somewhat crude analogy: To stop breast feeding and learn to forage myself.
I am big boy now. I should move on.
I may do a bit of an Elton John and give two or three more farewell concerts, but if I do more than that, then please, kick me off the stage...
It is the two that I am trying to separate out, addiction and activism.
Activism is out there in newspapers, tv protesting and the like, this message board stuff can, for me, it may be an entirely different experience for others, has become a comfort zone. I am not willing to move on, to let go (as I have advised plenty of other people to do, bit of pots and kettles going on there)
ESMB has been fantastic. It has allowed me to work out my confused thoughts, it was very important for reforming relationships with former comrades and allowed a bit of a cushioning effect. But I needed to be weaned off a long time ago. If you will excuse the somewhat crude analogy: To stop breast feeding and learn to forage myself.
I am big boy now. I should move on.
I may do a bit of an Elton John and give two or three more farewell concerts, but if I do more than that, then please, kick me off the stage...