I was in the academy studying "basic study manual" that 30 page little red soft covered magazine book (1975). I had a cog! I didn't really know what the word "the" meant.
As I was looking this up, a church exec came to where I was sitting introduced himself and asked what I was doing, I said, looking up the word the, "happy and proudly I found a mis-understood word" he said your are taking too long on the course don't worry about those words until you finish the manual.
"my thoughts, were the fuck am I and is this really a Hubbard sanctioned scientology church" my ability to study stopped dead.
My senses went into overtime, I wanted the answer to "what is this place and why don't they want me to understand this basic study manual?"
For two weeks I looked at that study manual as brain washing tech to keep me from LRH's real tech.
I finally relaxed at home and read the whole manual from cover to cover. WOW this is really good stuff and Ron did write this stuff.
Sitting on cloud nine fully blown out, the course sup took one look and sent me to ethics.
When I told him what happened, that I accused a staff member of telling me not to look up words I didn't understand, and for two weeks didn't believe the place was sanctioned by LRH, he the ethics officer completely ignored this and asked how my life outside scientology was going.
I told him my wife left with the kid to Halifax, my reasons to have and support her ended. My life was going nowhere with her.
I thought to myself "Reactive based love relationship can really be rough."
The ethics officer said quote "the reason you can't study is you need to handle this marriage PTS condition."
My end thoughts as I left his office was he is fucking nuts, ask someone else for permission to exist or disconnect. "What happened to this is the road towards a self-determed life"
What stopped me studying was the church's exec saying don't look up anymore words until you finish the manual.
I was in a two weeks low in the academy nothing is done, I read, cog with VGIs and I am sent to ethics. Talk about mind fucked socio/paranoid behaviour at its finest.
What I didn't know at the time, my body router dead filed and turned me into ethics bait.
What I didn't know then was Ron trashed DMSMH basic workable datums and twisted them into mind fucking PTS/SP tech and self-enforcing slavery called ethics formulas.
I refused to accept that L. Ron Hubbard wrote scientology ethics, I could not believe he would butcher his original subject DMSMH.
since I have been venting on ESMB I am reaching a certainty he wrote DMSMH on pure speculation.
and that the whole subject was pure speculation to him, and used his followers and staff as the cash cow and source for more speculation.
I am a dianeticist and scientologist and L Ron Hubbard has turned every valuable datum collected over thousands of years by mankind about the mind, body and/or spirit into disgusted and hated puke.
As I was looking this up, a church exec came to where I was sitting introduced himself and asked what I was doing, I said, looking up the word the, "happy and proudly I found a mis-understood word" he said your are taking too long on the course don't worry about those words until you finish the manual.
"my thoughts, were the fuck am I and is this really a Hubbard sanctioned scientology church" my ability to study stopped dead.
My senses went into overtime, I wanted the answer to "what is this place and why don't they want me to understand this basic study manual?"
For two weeks I looked at that study manual as brain washing tech to keep me from LRH's real tech.
I finally relaxed at home and read the whole manual from cover to cover. WOW this is really good stuff and Ron did write this stuff.
Sitting on cloud nine fully blown out, the course sup took one look and sent me to ethics.
When I told him what happened, that I accused a staff member of telling me not to look up words I didn't understand, and for two weeks didn't believe the place was sanctioned by LRH, he the ethics officer completely ignored this and asked how my life outside scientology was going.
I told him my wife left with the kid to Halifax, my reasons to have and support her ended. My life was going nowhere with her.
I thought to myself "Reactive based love relationship can really be rough."
The ethics officer said quote "the reason you can't study is you need to handle this marriage PTS condition."
My end thoughts as I left his office was he is fucking nuts, ask someone else for permission to exist or disconnect. "What happened to this is the road towards a self-determed life"
What stopped me studying was the church's exec saying don't look up anymore words until you finish the manual.
I was in a two weeks low in the academy nothing is done, I read, cog with VGIs and I am sent to ethics. Talk about mind fucked socio/paranoid behaviour at its finest.
What I didn't know at the time, my body router dead filed and turned me into ethics bait.
What I didn't know then was Ron trashed DMSMH basic workable datums and twisted them into mind fucking PTS/SP tech and self-enforcing slavery called ethics formulas.
I refused to accept that L. Ron Hubbard wrote scientology ethics, I could not believe he would butcher his original subject DMSMH.
since I have been venting on ESMB I am reaching a certainty he wrote DMSMH on pure speculation.
and that the whole subject was pure speculation to him, and used his followers and staff as the cash cow and source for more speculation.
I am a dianeticist and scientologist and L Ron Hubbard has turned every valuable datum collected over thousands of years by mankind about the mind, body and/or spirit into disgusted and hated puke.