Hey there. I need help getting out of Scientology. I have been on staff for over 4 years but I can't take it anymore. I've been lied to four times regarding the schedule I was on, and it got so bad that when I was 16 they made me work there full time over the summer. I asked if that was okay for them to do that and apparently it was, but I never agreed to be there full time. Then I got lied to again when I asked to help with someone and covering their schedule, getting told it was only going to be 2 months. Those two months turned into 9 months. Now they're making me change my schedule again, and it got so bad that two of them came over and I got bullied into saying yes to this schedule. I've been miserable the last three weeks, and I've been super fucking depressed and sick of it. Nobody has asked me how I'm doing, and it's ruining my life. My boyfriend and I are both sick of it, and half the time I feel like crying. I want to get out, but there is another thing that comes into the fray that I'm worried about.
That's my family. They're all Scientologists and my parents are making me stay there. My step-mom told me I have to fulfill my contract, but I didn't know it was going to be five years. I just feel so lied to, and they all keep preaching it's in the name of help. Help, my ass.
I don't talk to my step-mom and I refuse to speak with her. The rest of the family besides my dad is pretty much ignored as well, but that's because my mom talked a lot of shit about me after I left and none of them want anything to deal with me. However, my dad still talks to me and he is in charge of helping me with my financial aid for school along with helping with my rent. However, if I leave I know that I'll be disowned by my family and any help I need now and in the future will be null and void. I fucking hate it, but I feel like the only thing keeping me there at this point is that relationship. I love my dad, and he's really the only family I have left. My brother hasn't talked to me in almost three years, and my step-mom's family likes to pretend I don't exist or humor me on occasion.
I don't know what to do. I've told my boyfriend about all of this and I don't know how to find a way out. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of being treated like this and having this pain all the time. I feel like I'm going through a fucking crisis right now and I can't tell anyone about it. I know I'm probably sounding emotional as hell, but it's just something that's been going through my mind. I've had headaches for the last three days because of all the strain on my body and mentally. I just can't take it anymore, and I had to get this out.
If anyone has been through this shit please help. I just need someone to talk to about this to figure out a way out. The only person who knows how I really feel regarding this is my boyfriend, and as awesome as he is, he doesn't know what to do.
That's my family. They're all Scientologists and my parents are making me stay there. My step-mom told me I have to fulfill my contract, but I didn't know it was going to be five years. I just feel so lied to, and they all keep preaching it's in the name of help. Help, my ass.
I don't talk to my step-mom and I refuse to speak with her. The rest of the family besides my dad is pretty much ignored as well, but that's because my mom talked a lot of shit about me after I left and none of them want anything to deal with me. However, my dad still talks to me and he is in charge of helping me with my financial aid for school along with helping with my rent. However, if I leave I know that I'll be disowned by my family and any help I need now and in the future will be null and void. I fucking hate it, but I feel like the only thing keeping me there at this point is that relationship. I love my dad, and he's really the only family I have left. My brother hasn't talked to me in almost three years, and my step-mom's family likes to pretend I don't exist or humor me on occasion.
I don't know what to do. I've told my boyfriend about all of this and I don't know how to find a way out. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of being treated like this and having this pain all the time. I feel like I'm going through a fucking crisis right now and I can't tell anyone about it. I know I'm probably sounding emotional as hell, but it's just something that's been going through my mind. I've had headaches for the last three days because of all the strain on my body and mentally. I just can't take it anymore, and I had to get this out.
If anyone has been through this shit please help. I just need someone to talk to about this to figure out a way out. The only person who knows how I really feel regarding this is my boyfriend, and as awesome as he is, he doesn't know what to do.