hey people wats up? I thought i would tell abit aboubt myself for people who dont know me.
I arrived to the ANZO cadets in October of 1996 and i was the yougest at 6 years old. I remained in cadets till 2003, through which i went through many different experiences. there was many things that made me think about the church and the things it did.
In 2000 i caused a certain legal flap for OSA ANZO when i was picked up by police at 11Pm in the city of Sydney because i had missed the bus, i also stated to the police that i did not want to return to the church. This got the government interested in the church and they decided to investigate the cadet org and how the children were being looked after in the church due me not wanting to return to the church. When the church found out the investigation was going to occur they moved all the cadets off the base to a separate berthing for outer org trainees for several days while the investigation occured. This was something that made me wonder what they were trying to hide, looking back at it now i can see what they were trying to hide.
Anyway there is a few things like that that always made me wonder whether or not the church was actually straight on everything.
I joined the EPF in 2003 when i was 13 and graduated eventually into becoming a ful SO member, i was totally excited as to what was in store for me being a cadet for so long.
Gee, now that i am writing this there is a lot of things i could write and say but i want this to be simple and give a general background of me.
I was RPFed in Dec of 2006 for specific reasons, and spent till December 2010 there until i finally blew. Why so long? my program was changed three times through the course of my program and i worked in almost every area of the RPF, and a lot of things happened on the RPF. Through the course of my RPF i wanted to leave so many times but never had anywhere to go. I had never lived outside of the church before, i was always around it or living with people who worked there. so the influence of the church was always there, so i was always terrified of leaving it.
It wasnt till December 2010 when my father came down to check up on me and see how i was going. He gave me the option to leave and that if i didnt want to stay i could go with him. Me being still in the RPF and so "close"to graduating (little did i know i still had another 4 months due to reprogramming) I denied the offer. A week later i finally saw that i would be on the RPF for a lot longer than i thought, so i blew and have not returned or had second thougts about it.
When I left, the church did a lot to try and get me back, I was told that if i returned i would be given a Board of Review on my RPF assignment upon return.... makes sense? not per any policy i know. The hardest part was telling my mother i would not return to the church...... it was not easy for either of us. But i had to refuse as i did not want to go back to the RPF after 3 years of being there and saw no future there.
So i have been out since December of last year and have done alot, experienced alot more and i like to say "lived life""and loving it.
I am so grateful for my father and that he was there when i needed him.
That should give you a general idea of who i am.
gee, how come it feels sooo good to say something on your mind and not be judged or punished for it. Till next time
glad you are doing well...
freedom can be a cold and lonely thing sometimes but there's always a warm camp somewhere and at least sometimes you find it
have a great life!