lostnfound
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Hi there !
I was born into a Scientology family with both parents being fairly active members of it. Growing up, I always felt like the weird kid at school, who didn't have many friends and such and was a bit of a geek. I hung around the org a lot and felt 'comfortable' there.
I did some courses and I came out of my shell a little and I enjoyed what I read and the auditing that I received. I liked it a lot in fact.
I joined staff without finishing high school and I enjoyed it whilst I was stilll young. When I got to 17 and 18 and had been on staff now for 6 years, I was getting kinda bored of it. Felt that I couldn't leave because I was a bad person if I did. I also knew that the org was far off what it was supposed to be like and felt that I should be a good person and do something about it.
Never mind having no money, I was saving the world and the world would blow up with out me! I'd pee in the wind and don't worry, it'll work out some how.
Anyhow, a few years went by (and my debts got bigger along the way) and I got so fed up of not being able to get work, eating properly and having shit clothes. So, I thought maybe the right thing to do is join the SO and then maybe I will stop pulling all these things in and if I did so to start with, then I wouldn't be where I was.
So, I joined
I lasted 10 months and then the basics came out and I thought what the hell have I done!???? Get me outta here. I spent 2 months trying to get out, enduring the name calling, mental abuse and slavery I stupidly subjected myself to and I eventually packed my bags and left.
I left the SO thinking that I was a really bad person and look what I had done to the group and taken myself away from it.
Its taken me until now (1.5 years later) to really convince myself that I am a good person and that I am not what I was made to believe I am.
So I am on the outside and enjoying it!!! :dancer:
Looking forward to getting to know you all and reading more of your stories and sharing experiences.
I was born into a Scientology family with both parents being fairly active members of it. Growing up, I always felt like the weird kid at school, who didn't have many friends and such and was a bit of a geek. I hung around the org a lot and felt 'comfortable' there.
I did some courses and I came out of my shell a little and I enjoyed what I read and the auditing that I received. I liked it a lot in fact.
I joined staff without finishing high school and I enjoyed it whilst I was stilll young. When I got to 17 and 18 and had been on staff now for 6 years, I was getting kinda bored of it. Felt that I couldn't leave because I was a bad person if I did. I also knew that the org was far off what it was supposed to be like and felt that I should be a good person and do something about it.
Never mind having no money, I was saving the world and the world would blow up with out me! I'd pee in the wind and don't worry, it'll work out some how.
Anyhow, a few years went by (and my debts got bigger along the way) and I got so fed up of not being able to get work, eating properly and having shit clothes. So, I thought maybe the right thing to do is join the SO and then maybe I will stop pulling all these things in and if I did so to start with, then I wouldn't be where I was.
So, I joined
I lasted 10 months and then the basics came out and I thought what the hell have I done!???? Get me outta here. I spent 2 months trying to get out, enduring the name calling, mental abuse and slavery I stupidly subjected myself to and I eventually packed my bags and left.
I left the SO thinking that I was a really bad person and look what I had done to the group and taken myself away from it.
Its taken me until now (1.5 years later) to really convince myself that I am a good person and that I am not what I was made to believe I am.
So I am on the outside and enjoying it!!! :dancer:
Looking forward to getting to know you all and reading more of your stories and sharing experiences.