I told you I was trouble
Suspended animation
What an amazing thread ... there is some wonderful advice here and being in a similar situation myself I really understand how your attention remains on this.
It is truly shocking to feel such abandonment by those that you love, but LuluBelle said it perfectly (below) and I'm going to endeavor to take her advice and hope you will too.
Sometimes you just have to quietly walk away and give your attention and love to those that love and appreciate you in the here and now.
I fail to understand how families can be so 'cut and dried' with their own ... but scientology encourages it and one day will (no doubt) try and regain control of us by issuing some kind of amnesty/bribe ... which I will completely ignore.
If my family ever wake up they will have to come and find me and earn my interest again, I'll never stop loving them but their mercenary behaviour sickens me and I will never consider that it was warranted, because it wasn't.
Good luck ExSO.
It is truly shocking to feel such abandonment by those that you love, but LuluBelle said it perfectly (below) and I'm going to endeavor to take her advice and hope you will too.
The way that this makes you feel is in and of itself enough of a reason to just walk away from it.
Sometimes you just have to quietly walk away and give your attention and love to those that love and appreciate you in the here and now.
I fail to understand how families can be so 'cut and dried' with their own ... but scientology encourages it and one day will (no doubt) try and regain control of us by issuing some kind of amnesty/bribe ... which I will completely ignore.
If my family ever wake up they will have to come and find me and earn my interest again, I'll never stop loving them but their mercenary behaviour sickens me and I will never consider that it was warranted, because it wasn't.
Good luck ExSO.