Alan's been kidnapped! (was John McMaster's partial story!)

[Alan]

THE KIDNAPPING

Don't stop now Alan!

People will get crabbier.

THE KIDNAPPING

I came on board the ship…….got myself a cabin…….SO Officers were allowed their own cabins in those days – took a few hours sleep to get over jet lag.

Made myself available for the Flag HGC as an auditor…….everything was on the surface looking good………except for the weird mood level of the ship.

During the day there was a rebroadcast of any staff meetings between LRH and the Commodore Staff. It was from this I got an inkling of what was going on…..Ron was constantly going on about SMERSH and the SP 10.

Put SMERSH, the SP 10, the R6ers, the Marcabians, the standard run of the mill SPs, the druggies, etc., – there were bogeymen out to get everybody, everywhere.

Anyway I go for my standard Missionaries’ Sec Check – the auditor is Belcacim Feraj. It appeared Belcacim liked to impress LRH so he would write up embroidered Sec Checks to prove how good he was at pulling O/W’s.

Nothing much comes up…….then I’m called in again for more Sec Checking……again nothing much comes up……..but the questions are strange: IE; Are you in the pay of Government or Business Agents? And many variations of the above.

I don’t take that much notice of it…….also during this time I’m debriefing on the US scene…….I was very critical of the quickie grades and the omitted basics that were rampant throughout the Scio Orgs.

I realized during this time LRH was not getting all the data……the Commodore Staffs and the Outer ORG SO Execs were only sending what they felt LRH wanted.

I was the messenger of bad news……LRH often shot the messenger!

Whilst this was going on I was auditing staff execs – plus members of LRH’s Household Unit. LRH was the C/S. Which made it dangerous for these people to get their charge and withholds off.

Also I began to have a relationship with a girl who worked in CIC……the top secret Central Information Center on board the ship. CIC was where all the secret missions, data, and programs were stored and where the world-wide stats were kept.

Naturally I was privy to all the inside scoop…..anyway one day my gf was freaked out – she showed me a document in LRHs handwriting to C/S 1, Brian Livingston – ordering him to get GO Legal John Parcelle to inform the IRS that I owed back taxes – (which I did not) .

This document devastated me – I could not confront the incredible betrayal.

I knew then I was in trouble………so I managed to slip off the ship, we were still in Casablanca…….I went to a Hotel and made a call to Dallas – to my top Exec Susan Ballantine – later to become Susan Watson President of CC.

She told me that every Org and every Mission had been informed that I had confessed to being a secret agent in the pay of business interests and that I was attempting to take over Scientology – it was this document that freaked John McMaster’s out.

It also collapsed and crashed the stats of all my missions – for at that time I had 10 Missions: Dallas, Saint Louis, Boston, Cambridge, New Orleans, Atlanta, Kansas City, 500 West End in New York, La Jolla, and Beverly Hills, we had at one stage over a 1,000 students advanced paid to do the SHSBC.

I also had several other businesses, one of which had over 7000 employees.

These Missions were very viable, we had double staff – that means all staff had replacements for when they needed to get upper level training or processing.

7 years of work by myself and the team destroyed.

Also at that time another SO Missionare came on board and was surprised to see me walking free……LRH, MSH or Brian Livingston had not told anyone on the ship what they were up to.

More to come!

Alan

 

[Wisened One]

Alan...WOW....CONTINUE, ASAP!!!

And that crap about governments being after Hubbard for Scn was TRUE?!

Hubby and I thought all that part was utter crap!? :confused2:

 

[Alan]

Alan...WOW....CONTINUE, ASAP!!!

And that crap about governments being after Hubbard for Scn was TRUE?!

Hubby and I thought all that part was utter crap!? :confused2:

Well Nixon had Hubbard on his enemies list - which tranfered to me being in Nixon's enemy list.

But Hubbard provoked Nixon.

Listen to LRH tapes and you can easily see that Hubbard was the source of the attacks on Governments. - He constantly accused the IRS, FBI, and CIA of crimes.......in other words he constantly needled them and drew their attention to him.

The different Gov agencies were just doing their jobs....."who is this nut that keeps bad mouthing us?"

Alan

 

[Veda]

During the 1950s Hubbard wrote a lot of strange letters to the FBI, claiming one thing or another, including that various people (mostly Scientologists, plus his ex-wife) were Communists or Communist sympathizers.

There's a stack of these letters a half inch thick, and some are on the Internet.

http://www.ronthenut.org/appears-.htm

http://www.religio.de/books/lifeti/sara_bg.htm

 

[byte301]

The way you described the atmosphere onboard the ship reminds me of Jonestown's last days. Thank god it didn't get to that point.

 

[Alan]

The way you described the atmosphere onboard the ship reminds me of Jonestown's last days. Thank god it didn't get to that point.

It was not like that - more "a glee of denial" trance - "we are right" - "they are wrong" - "we have the technology that everyone else wants" - "we also have the greatest being on earth" leading us - very arrogant - very righteous!

 

[Div6]

It was not like that - more "a glee of denial" trance - "we are right" - "they are wrong" - "we have the technology that everyone else wants" - "we also have the greatest being on earth" leading us - very arrogant - very righteous!

Very much a "bunker mentality"

bunker mentality
n.
An attitude of extreme defensiveness and self-justification based on an often exaggerated sense of being under persistent attack from others.

LRH would go to any extreme, it seems to avoid giving up his missed withholds....including starting a fake navy, running off to sea, installing wrong items in others, etc.

 

[Tanstaafl]

The way you described the atmosphere onboard the ship reminds me of Jonestown's last days. Thank god it didn't get to that point.

I know a Scn named Jim Jones.

 

[Challenge]

I'm still trying to straighten out my timeline about this. In what year did you disband the Dallas Franchise?
My interest in this is that John Mac called me out of the blue one day and asked me if it was true that you were being held captive in chains on the Apollo. I told John that I had seen you just hours before the call from him, and that you had been very much around for the preceeding weeks.
I was sure under the impression that you owed back taxes. It would be expected of a "good scientologist" that he would NOT pay taxes, so I didn't give it a second thought that you were not paying them. ( If you weren't, or hadn't).
The mindset that you describe existing on the Apollo was sure accurate. I couldn't believe the tone level on the ship. I attributed it to the gross filthy living conditions that was rampant until I observed that there was abject terror on the faces of the Execs. The CMO little girls were little horrors from hell. The students were in some state like shock, and couldn't grasp the subject matter. After about 2 weeks, I decided that everyone on the ship was crazier than a shithouse rat.
Anyways, I am not at this time able to reconcile the dates that are involved here with my own recalls. Sorry for being such a pain in the butt, as I didn't intend to remind you of any painful incidents.

CHLNG

 

[Wisened One]

I know a Scn named Jim Jones.

I know a Scn named Charles Manson

 

[Tanstaafl]

I know a Scn named Charles Manson

So, we've got an organisation that purports to be a religion and claims it's the only hope for mankind and three members are Hubbard, Manson and Jim Jones..........................

 

[Leon]

THE KIDNAPPING


she showed me a document in LRHs handwriting to ....(snip)..... inform the IRS that I owed back taxes......

Alan

The Overt Speaketh Loudly in Accusation.

As always

 

[Alan]

I'm still trying to straighten out my timeline about this.

In what year did you disband the Dallas Franchise?

Late 1970 or early 1971.

My interest in this is that John Mac called me out of the blue one day and asked me if it was true that you were being held captive in chains on the Apollo. I told John that I had seen you just hours before the call from him, and that you had been very much around for the preceeding weeks.

On Friday, November 21, 1969, John McMaster, the first Clear, sat down and wrote a long letter to his leader and mentor, L. Ron Hubbard. - Excerpt - Malko's book.

I left from LA to go to Lisbon...... I had been on the ship at the time John wrote his letter for almost 5 weeks - so you could not have seen me walking around - unless you were exterior with full peeping abilities

I was sure under the impression that you owed back taxes. It would be expected of a "good scientologist" that he would NOT pay taxes, so I didn't give it a second thought that you were not paying them. ( If you weren't, or hadn't).

I'll get to the tax situation later. But, I had paid my personal taxes up to that time.

The mindset that you describe existing on the Apollo was sure accurate. I couldn't believe the tone level on the ship. I attributed it to the gross filthy living conditions that was rampant until I observed that there was abject terror on the faces of the Execs. The CMO little girls were little horrors from hell. The students were in some state like shock, and couldn't grasp the subject matter. After about 2 weeks, I decided that everyone on the ship was crazier than a shithouse rat.

Anyways, I am not at this time able to reconcile the dates that are involved here with my own recalls. Sorry for being such a pain in the butt, as I didn't intend to remind you of any painful incidents.

CHLNG

No problem - it is just so embarrassing to do oneself in over such crap - then go victim to it for years.

Alan

 

[Veda]

A few excerpts from the John McMaster interview (1986) in the book, 'Messiah or Madman?':

"I was so excited about the function of auditing and its potential for assisting individuals to become more able and aware, that I was willing to overlook Hubbard's faults, as they gradually became known to me. That was up to the point of course, the final point being my realization that his intentions were entirely self serving. I saw that he was in it for money and personal power, and his actual intentions were not as stated.

"The basic function of auditing is a wonderful thing, but Hubbard perverted it...

"He got the technology to the point where he had a sort of assembly line as he called it. And he told me how he was putting all these 'square ball bearings' on the beginning of the assembly line, and then turning them into 'round ball bearings' at the other end. That was his idea of 'standard tech'.

...

"I never spoke with him until I graduated from the Briefing Course in the first week in January 1964. And he sent for me and that's how it all started.

"I said to him, 'There's something I'd better tell you before someone else does, that I'm not a Scientologist. All I'm interested in is this function of auditing'.

"And he said, 'That's exactly why I want you. You are not like the rest out there'.

"And in all the years of working for him I found that he absolutely despised people for being Scientologists.

...

"Hubbard used affinity to manipulate people.

"But it was always an apparent affinity really. He would say to people, 'You are the only one'. I have heard about a hundred people say that to me: 'Oh well, he told me I was the only one'...

"And people would never destroy their allegiance to Ron because he had told them they were 'the only one'.

"Hubbard had brought me a copy of the Encyclopedia Britannica and put it next to me. And pointed out a thing he wanted me to read, and that was where Buddha predicts that a red headed man will appear in the West - Maitreya and so on. And his first disciple would be a 'disciple of love' - namely myself."

McMaster also commented on an encounter with Hubbard at St. Hill, when he urgently needed to relay a message:

"Well, it was about mid day. He was just getting up. He was a night owl. Anyway, I got up there and he was in his bathroom, which was attached to his bedroom. He came out and I was surprised at the color of his body. It was grey. He came out nude.

"And there on the table was one of those enormous bottles of Gin.

On the Apollo, McMaster witnessed Hubbard's drug supply, "It was the largest drug chest I had ever seen. He had everything!"

...

Another Sea Org member, John Ausley, commented:

John McMaster seriously bottom lined on the chain locker. Kids would get locked up in there. To John's mind you don't take a four year old and put him down in a hatch. You don't terrorize a kid."

McMaster described a confrontation with Hubbard over a little girl that has been placed in the chain locker, after which he was made a galley hand and subject to extreme physical labor.

"Hubbard wanted to break me," McMaster said.

http://www.lermanet.com/exit/john-mcmaster/john-mcmaster.jpg

http://www.forum.exscn.net/showpost.php?p=56246&postcount=798

 

[Vinaire]

In Alan's defense, he is giving a seminar this weekend, so his attention will not be fully able to be in this area over the next bit of time.

But once that is over, I expect he will be willing to have another look at the area.

It is ironic that he was comm-eved for "attempting to take over Scn" when Scn WAS taken over....just not by him.

Enjoy the week-end...it is Spy vs Sci raid week. Go support your local Anons.......

What was really at stake about "taking over Scientology?"

Knowledge is free, isn't it?

.

 

[Vinaire]

...

"And in all the years of working for him I found that he absolutely despised people for being Scientologists.

...

Did Hubbard love SPs then? So, he separated those he loved from those he hated.

In my view SPs are very much self-determined. That is the goal of auditing - to make people more self-determined.

.

 

[byte301]

It was not like that - more "a glee of denial" trance - "we are right" - "they are wrong" - "we have the technology that everyone else wants" - "we also have the greatest being on earth" leading us - very arrogant - very righteous!

Thanks for clearing that up for me. I was reading something into it that wasn't there. Maybe it was just the dread I feel about the way this story is going.

I wonder if the way you describe the atmosphere then is the mentality in the orgs today considering the protests?

 

[Veda]

Did Hubbard love SPs then? So, he separated those he loved from those he hated.

In my view SPs are very much self-determined. That is the goal of auditing - to make people more self-determined.

.

Mostly, Hubbard was attempting to manipulate McMaster with affinity by telling him how special he was. As for disliking Scientologists, it's probably more accurate to say that Hubbard didn't respect Scientologists.

Don't make it more complicated than it is.

 

[Vinaire]

Mostly, Hubbard was attempting to manipulate McMaster with affinity by telling him how special he was. As for disliking Scientologists, it's probably more accurate to say that Hubbard didn't respect Scientologists.

Don't make it more complicated than it is.

I am just wondering what Hubbard wanted from McMaster. Seems like he felt he was nearly found out by McMaster?

.

 

[Alan]

My Universe Collapsed!

When I read the handwritten document of LRH to C/S 1, Brian Livingston – ordering him to get GO Legal John Parcelle to inform the IRS that I owed back taxes.

This document devastated me - it sent me into a state of shock – I could not confront the incredible betrayal.

My universe was beginning to collapse then.

When I managed to slip off the ship and went to the Hotel and made the call to Dallas – to my top Exec Susan Ballantine and when she told me that every Org and every Mission had been informed that I had confessed to being a secret agent in the pay of business interests and that I was attempting to take over Scientology.

My universe collapsed completely.

Hubbard and Mary-Sue were masters at collapsing people universes.

John McMaster’s universe was collapsed the same way, as was Yvonne Gillham’s, Ray and Pam Kemp, Bent and Mary Corydon, Jack Horner, and 100’s of others who reached beyond LRH’s and MSH’s control.

Collapsed universes usually start with a moment of shock.

When a being runs into an overwhelming or non-comprehended situation, whether written or spoken, it can create a moment of heavy shock.

This collapses your space, energy, time, objects and the ability to manifest your wants into a condensed dot.

You have no space, no reach, no energy, no time, no ownership of things or objects, and no ability to create.

In an attempt to be responsible you turn inward – big mistake – now you begin to make yourself wrong.

This causes you the being to withdraw from the area.

The more high powered the being the bigger the shock.

This shock throws the being out of the space and the area or areas he was occupying.

The being puts in the space he was occupying a frozen burnt out collection of mental images of the now collapsed set-ups he had created into that moment of shock.

This can cause the being to experience the feeling of being compulsively outside of the area or subject he wants to occupy.

Too many of these shocks and the being will experience the feeling of chronic aloneness.

You will feel like an outsider no matter where you go.

The mental image often has nothing on it, just a gap of blackness. The shock created is quite painful and the being feels "stupid". To handle that feeling of stupidity he puts in an altered representation of the situation.

Realize that when you see someone with a vague or stunned look on his face, he is stuck in a gap of blackness mental images caused by the shock of an overwhelming or non-comprehended situation.

The mental images just before and just after the shock contain confusion and pain. It is the confusion, pain, and altered representations combined that make up the sensation of stupidity.

So when you feel "stupid", realize that it isn't you but mental images that contain shock, confusion, pain, gaps of blackness, stupidity, and altered representations.

Thus there are six manifestations connected to overwhelming or non-comprehended situations.

1. Confusion.
2. Shock.
3. Gap of blackness.
4. Pain.
5. Stupidity.
6. An altered representation.

You lose all ability to make gains – both in life and for yourself.

The resultant damage that of your being stuck in a collapsed universe is tremendous – as you now continuously negatively process yourself downscale.

You lose the ability to hold a position, to be yourself – worse you start to believe the false accusations of how bad you are.

You have become trapped and locked in mortal combat with your “universe collapsers” because you feel the only way out is to right the wrongs you have done – yet at the same time you know that your “universe collapsers” have also lied to you.

Usually this type of incident is so heavy and the resultant upsets so great – it will not read on a meter.

Hubbard and Mary-Sue tendency to collapsing people universes usually turned on when they engaged in criminal activities.

More to come!