Silver Meritorious Patron
Because they mistake this destructive impulse for courage, because there is a certain confidence of power in that impulse and others simply don't recognise it as evil (because they haven't seen it personally before), or because they believe the best force to fight evil is an equally evil force.
I believe Marty is actually trying to make a new life for himself, but is too chickenshit to confront this aspect of himself and the results of what he did. Whenever he gets close, he pushes it away, blocks it out, denies. He was a tool of destruction who destroyed lives for years and years! And the last time he even began to confront the effects of his actions (after the Coletto episode) he was crushed for years.
Yes, Marty/Mark fell back into the same thing again, and did even worse to others than what happened with the Colettos. (yes, Mark/Marty, I know how your ego killed Diane when you were supposed to protect her. We could forgive that years later as youthful male arrogance - but you fell into it AGAIN only WORSE)
The point of my letter is - since I KNOW he reads ESMB or asks others to do so for him - is to let him know there IS a way to completely resolve this. He still has it going on - as written by Joel Sappell in his LA Magazine article from his recent interview with Marty. He can be free of this evil/anger/rage - but he has to set aside his ego and truly want to let it go and quit admiring it in himself.
And of course, make genuine, suitable amends to those he hurt. That goes without saying.
The Sea Org demands that you channel and nurture your inner asshole. Marty did very very well in that. It's been successful, for him, and I can't see that he would ever acknowledge it as a flaw.
He is a trained sociopath, warped by a twisted dishonorable philosophy that reinforces that as a good thing.
This isn't some minor S.O. dweeb, this was a highly placed very successful operative. Nothing has changed and won't because Marty hasn't confronted anything he's been through as something to question and examine. He must be right (or he's been nothing at all).
Marty, you've been nothing at all.