Hi everyone. Over the last several months I've been working on a lot of personal issues related childhood abuse. When I was growing up, and we went out in public or had family or friends over, we had to "wear a mask" and pretend we were happy. I've worn masks most of my life and I feel I owe it to myself to take it off and really be me. I've started working on my story, I'm posting it on blogger link is in my sig., and mostly I'm just not afraid anymore. In my story I am still leaving out some identifying information to protect those I love who could be hurt, not by CoS, but by me being brutally truthful. I liked my angl name, but felt it wasn't really truthful. Not that I was lying, but the name felt like a lie, I'm not an angel I'm human. Not sure if that'll make sense to anyone else, but it's how I feel. I've made several friends and I want them and everyone else to know me and not some partial version of me. Thank you Emma for helping me to continue to grow and heal.