Sometimes i wonder if pain caused to the mind/soul heals in the identical way that nature heals a knee bloodied by falling down.
The body already has unimaginably perfect "software" to heal it, by doing this. . .
Just letting the healing process work its way through the repair/regrowth of cells, scabs and the rest, until one day it looks like new.
I have often thought maybe the mind is the same.
By doing nothing, maybe it knows how to heal itself perfectly.
And by doing something (Scientology auditing, ethics conditions, training, et al) it just gets worse. I honestly believe Scientology makes things worse--to wit, the able become less able.
Maybe "doing nothing" is the meditation solution so many people swear by. Hubbard almost had it incorporated into Scientology in TR-0, but then he goofed the floof because he compulsively had to do/say more than "nothing", so he invented TR1,2,3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8 and beyond. He even developed TR-L (the lying TR) because he couldn't bear the idea of nothing.
He hated the nothing of being nobody. So he stole valor with dummied up war hero records, doctoral statuses and much more. Eventually he rapaciously claimed to be the savior of Earth and mankind. Even that wasn't enough, he went on to the "the only being in the history of the universe to pass through the Wall of Fire (OT III). That's when Ron claimed to be saving salvaging "this sector" of the universe. Later, he claimed he was saving all being in the entire universe too.
I find it fascinating that Hubbard boldly claimed to be able to do so many miracles. Just to name one, he guaranteed that he had discovered the technology to "SAVE YOUR MARRIAGE", when he himself had three unmitigated disasters in his own 3 failed marriages.
Well, back to "doing nothing" and allowing the mind to heal, I think much of what you speak of has to do with allowing your mind to go where it wants to go. And maybe your mind wanted to go in the direction of peace, love and forgiveness. Maybe someone else's mind heals in other manners. My mind, for example, feels quite happy to joyfully sneer at all things Scientology, lol, I earned that right many times over I am quite sure.
That is a lovely, sensitive post HH.
It is exactly how my poor shattered heart put itself back together.
I did nothing ... while it quietly healed itself.