Your basic assumption that the you can exist independently of "MEST" has never been shown to be true, and I don't share it. Obviously, this can lead to fundamental disagreements. I hope that won't make our discourse antagonistic, it won't from my end. I don't expect to change your "stable data", and I don't expect my own to change without new evidence that I can see for myself, or without my presenting you with evidence that you would accept for yourself.
I don't "do" antagonism.
For me, I toss my ideas up on a screen, you look at them, and you see something or you don't. Agree, disagree, I don't care.
I wouldn't call it my "stable data". From everything I have read, from everything I have experienced in auditing, and from many hours of meditation and other "mental techniques", what I try to describe seems "true". It is entirely my current opinion, based on what I have seen.
I am not trying to change your mind about anything. I am just having fun here, for awhile, trying to explain what is not easy to explain.
In a very real sense, a person cannot ever know about the nature of consciousness and how it relates to all that is, UNLESS you go there and experiment. Long and hard. The only folks to have ever done this to any degree have been Hindus and Buddhists. I am not saying that they have a workable path, or that the subjects aren't confusing and often contradictory, BUT these folks HAVE looked at this area, carefully and extensively at times, and in ways most westerners have not even the slightest clue about. Somebody should write out some drills or put together a course. To get one to look at, experiement with, and improve these areas of attention, concentration, awareness, and imagination.
One will not ever have ANY experience at all to base anything upon, unless one does some serious experimenting with ones "attention", "awareness", "imagination", "concentration", etc. Not by THINKING ABOUT these things, or arguing about these things with tired concepts, but by going there and fildding with these things on their own turf.
I have the opinion that trying to have a conversation with a person about these things, with a person who has never gone and carefully looked, is impossible. See, I have looked at the "other side" (not that it is actually the "other" anything). I have a degree in engineering (double major psychology), and I have studied many scientific subjects extensively, such as math (advanced Calculus, advanced differential equations), psychology, psychiatry, politics, physics, economics, biology, genetics, sociology, philosophy, and so forth. I have also read probably more than most on many fringe subjects such as UFOs, aliens, abductions, pyramids, ESP, extensive conspiracy theories, alternative medicine, alternative health, alternative science and alternative archeology. I HAVE carefully looked at, examined and can "understand" a large part of what falls under the "materialistic" bias in modern western reality.
Then I have also, with my engineering and questioning attitude, have studied a tremendous amount in realm of the occult, magick, religion, theosophy, Rosicrucianism, Masonic literature, and on and on. Again, I have checked out these subjects more than most people I ever meet. Scientology is in there somewhere.
Putting it all together leaves me with a slant towards the spirit side. I am aware that I have always had a personal bias in that direction, even before studying all of these things. I am aware that I have an inherent affinity for that "side". But, after extensive experimenting "inside", and I am no where far along this journey, it seems to me that there is something to the view: "spirit first, all else derives from that".
But, I undertand that is how I see it, and that everyone else sees things differently, based on ones unique education, inherent biases, and experiences. I don't have a monopoly on truth, and the older I get, and the more I study and look, the less I feel I truly know and understand.
I have
opinions in the matter. Nothing more and nothing less. I have spent time tearing apart my personal beliefs, motivations and "thought processes", so I am fairly aware of what goes on in my mental realm. Again, I suspect more than most. Maybe I am wrong on that. I find it enjoyable to organize my thoughts and write some of this out at times. I have little interest in "argumnets" or "debates". For me, this is primarily a vehicle of expression.
But in the end, wouldn't it be nice if people could calmly discuss these things, without the need to demand acceptance and agreement? THAT is what I have a problem with. The sick human desire and demand for agreement and conformity to some set of ideas, opinions or beliefs.