clamicide
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Don't get me wrong...I absolutely love, love, love ESMB. There are just some times when the bitchy fighting drives me a bit nuts...and I read it anyways sometimes. I had said that..."well, that's what message boards are like"...but, I've actually been on a lot of message boards, and that's not quite true. I've been on homeschooling boards where total granola atheists are talking to right-wing religious folks who have ostracized their gay children (don't get me started), and somehow most of the time it didn't approach some of the stuff I see here--there were always one or 2 a*holes, but most tried to connect. I don't know what it is. Is it when we were in the cult we could not express our viewpoint and it could not be right if we did, that we have to be so fricking adamant now? Not to say there is no connection taking place on ESMB--honestly, I have seen so many beautiful connections take place here, and maybe that's one reason why this other stuff bugs me so much. And, the fact that this place really helped me on my path in regaining myself (still working on it).
The only reason I started this thread was because I was thinking of a thread I read last night...and everyone was so cordial and wonderful, but I was too tired to put together a response about how wonderful it was. I hadn't noticed how much some of the strife just seemed to be..... ugh, I'm at a loss for words...it just hit me how refreshing that thread was, and how much I loved it; but checking into the thread today, it went down the road I don't like.
I'm not into censorship. I don't believe life is all sweet and cute... and I am totally against us 'exes' having to unite with others looking to 'take down the cult'. Yeah, my enemy's enemy is not necessarily my friend. I don't give a fuck if OSA thinks our in-fighting is a win. But, there are just some days when I want some harmony. Some tolerance. Fuck...I hate and despise the 'tech'...but, I can live with those who don't. Maybe I need to start a 'theetie-wheetie thread' for some happy clouds...which is totally ironic, since I totally hated those folks who were and am so aware of the dark side of life and my own 'dark side' that I could never be that.
The only reason I started this thread was because I was thinking of a thread I read last night...and everyone was so cordial and wonderful, but I was too tired to put together a response about how wonderful it was. I hadn't noticed how much some of the strife just seemed to be..... ugh, I'm at a loss for words...it just hit me how refreshing that thread was, and how much I loved it; but checking into the thread today, it went down the road I don't like.
I'm not into censorship. I don't believe life is all sweet and cute... and I am totally against us 'exes' having to unite with others looking to 'take down the cult'. Yeah, my enemy's enemy is not necessarily my friend. I don't give a fuck if OSA thinks our in-fighting is a win. But, there are just some days when I want some harmony. Some tolerance. Fuck...I hate and despise the 'tech'...but, I can live with those who don't. Maybe I need to start a 'theetie-wheetie thread' for some happy clouds...which is totally ironic, since I totally hated those folks who were and am so aware of the dark side of life and my own 'dark side' that I could never be that.
I love you guys, but some days, I just wish a case of Valium would show up on my doorstep or something. I kinda snapped and posted 
