Born to cofs family 1970 I escaped in 1990

[dolphinlover]

My name is AmЎ, a 30something adult. Have had nightmares and bits of memories, all like a strange jigsaw puzzle. Still none of my family will talk much at all about my childhood and teenage years.

I’m searching for adults raised in and around Los Angeles area church and cĕlĕbty cntr during the 1970s and 80s. My parents were on staff during the early 1970's when I was born. Mom took us into SO mid 70s during early renovations of the cōmplĕx buildings (aka p@cįfįc are@ Çomm@nd) We were only in $O briefly, (long story) then out as general Sc public.

One of my vague memories as a very young child we were in the basement of the org or mission building with my father while he was on post in a large file room. It may have been called addrĕsso’. The org was not the large collective of buildings as it is now, but I don’t know where it was in LA. I have many other bits and pieces and in my older years many memories and crazy stories. In the late 70s and 80s my family ran an in-home child care center for sc kids.

My story feels so long and complex, I dont know where to begin.
Anyone have suggestions on how I can put together my story.
Thanks, alk
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My way of joking is to tell the truth; it's the funniest joke in the world.

 

[gomorrhan]

You've started already. Thanks.

Are your family members still involved? I guess a good place to start would be how you got out, and how it all seems to you now.

 

[anonmom]

You can just say anything you feel like, Amy. It can be a specific experience that you would like to share. Maybe your exit story or how you feel about scientology. A lifetime of thoughts and experiences can be pretty overwhelming. I was only in the SO at Pac base for 1 year during the later
80s. I was in my early 20s then. It was enough to make a freaking HUGE impression on me! I can only imagine what you have been through. I'm just glad that you are out and here on ESMB. Welcome!

 

[Kathy (ImOut)]

Welcome, Dolphinlover.

Start your story anywhere you want to. It'll all come together as you write it.

 

[sandygirl]

Welcome Dolphinlover!!!!

Don't worry about how you present your story here. Just put down what you feel comfortable with and you'd be surprised how much it starts to flow!!!

 

[olska]

My name is AmЎ, a 30something adult. Have had nightmares and bits of memories, all like a strange jigsaw puzzle. Still none of my family will talk much at all about my childhood and teenage years.

I’m searching for adults raised in and around Los Angeles area church and cĕlĕbty cntr during the 1970s and 80s. My parents were on staff during the early 1970's when I was born. Mom took us into SO mid 70s during early renovations of the cōmplĕx buildings (aka p@cįfįc are@ Çomm@nd) We were only in $O briefly, (long story) then out as general Sc public.

One of my vague memories as a very young child we were in the basement of the org or mission building with my father while he was on post in a large file room. It may have been called addrĕsso’. The org was not the large collective of buildings as it is now, but I don’t know where it was in LA. I have many other bits and pieces and in my older years many memories and crazy stories. In the late 70s and 80s my family ran an in-home child care center for sc kids.

I was around PAC at that time, did some work on renos.

My kid is some years younger than you, but it's possible I knew your parents, as my child was cared for in the early years by an in-home child care center for scientology kids run by a couple. The husband sometimes worked for the L.A. org (FDN, I think) in the basement at Big Blue -- don't recall if he was part of addresso or a letter reg, on staff or volunteer. Don't recall if they were ever SO.

The Los Angeles Org used to be in a large converted house on 9th street, near MacArthur park (very run-down section of Los Angeles) -- probably had addresso in the basement, I'm not sure. ASHO was on Temple Street (I think), or near there -- near the intersection of Temple and Rampart. AOLA and Celebrity Center were also some where around that same MacArthur Park area, I think it's known as "Westlake" district. This was before the rennovations and move to Big Blue. Last I knew, that district was a great place to go if you wanted to buy a fake I.D. ...

PM if you'd like to share more sensitive info. Welcome!

 

[everfree]

It may have been called addrĕsso’.

That sounds like Addresso and/or Central Files.

My story feels so long and complex, I dont know where to begin.
Anyone have suggestions on how I can put together my story.

My suggestion is to start wherever you'll get the most benefit and say as much or little as you'd like at your own pace. Welcome.

 

[Wisened One]

to ESMB, Amy!

And you've already started. Just keep typing....I started telling my story from the night we escaped....and have added things from there, need to add more soon, in fact.....

It is so freeing to remember parts of your story and type it all out...even if you think it might not be interesting. It helps ALL of us realize we were not alone.

Look forward to reading more!

 

[boonies]

Hello and welcome.

 

[dolphinlover]

More of my story

I left the church in 1990 when I was 19 years old (a long story). I was born and raised in scin and Today, I still have family very much In the church, one public member, one on staff, and one sea org member. I try to keep in touch with all of them at least on occasion and I try not to be critical of the church in any fashion that might cause them to disconnect from me.

My parents who consider themselves Exscn, still “believe in the tech” and use “source/tech” in daily life. Also many of my parents’ friends are exscn in the greater so cal area. One of my parents was officially declared SP by comm ev in the late 80’s. Sometimes I feel as though I’ve never quite left the church, because my parents still use the “tech” and sometimes I think they are still a bit brainwashed. My parents have told me for many years, that any disturbing memories of my childhood were simply wrong or imagined, misunderstandings, misapplication of tech, etc...

I have been through a lot in my life...including physical, emotional, and sexual abuse, some by a parent and some by others. I have a few distant family members who were never part of Scin.

As my story comes together in my head I will share it on here.
Thanks again for providing a safe place to express freely.

 

[Power Change]

I think it is great that you are posting and sharing your story. From what I have read on this board...people just post in bits and pieces so there is no right or wrong way to let it all out.
And, so sorry for what you have gone through...you must be a strong person to have made it here in one piece and also it is obvious you are thinking for yourself. So be proud of yourself. I have been a lurker far longer than a poster so I have read a lot here...and can tell you that people here are very supportive and very helpful....

Look forward to hearing from you on the board.

 

[nexus100]

Hi dolphinlover,
Thank you so much for being here! If there is any truth among us on this board it is that we have not, and probably in most cases still do not know, what our entire story is. The way I've learned is to start, and let it fly. You'll have plenty of support and understanding. You are loved.

 

[KnightVision]

Hello Dolphin Lover!!!


Great big Welcome Party for you here!!!!

 

[Stan D'Teque]

Welcome, Dolphin Lover. I have seen plenty of people "grow up" in the Co$ so I sympathize with your story - looking forward to more of it. I'm very glad you've survived as well as you havehttp://www.forum.exscn.net/images/smilies/biggrin.gif

 

[Derwiddian]

Hi Dolphin Lover --

I knew you, your mom, dad, and stepdad (Stan) in the 1970's. I occasionally took you to amusement parks when I was in LA. In your early childhood, I sometimes made up a bridge foursome with your parents and Stan at your house on Carondelet St., and I often played correspondence chess with your dad. I remember the sad occasion of coming down from Davis to visit your dad in the San Gabriel nursing home two days before he died (Stan, your mom, and your grandparents were there, and I think you were too). Later, I rented the small apartment attached to your house on Russell at Commonwealth from April 1978 to July 1979. You probably remember me.

Your parents and Stan probably considered me to be an ex-Sci with overts against the Church. I know your mom did. I didn't argue about it or discuss it with them. But the truth was that I never really unwogged. I had taken a couple of courses in 1968 and had three levels of free student auditing. That was it, and it was more than enough. I could never remotely accept the infallibility of LRH and was appalled at the lack of skepticism by Scientologists. The persistent money-grubbing was dreadful too.

Recently I retired after a career at IRS headquarters (tax-exempt organizations division) and decided to look up old friends in California. From your long and difficult post on the Ex-Sci Kids site I learned that Stan had died and that your life in Scientology had been sheer hell. I am sorry you had so difficult an upbringing, and doubly so as your stepdad was at one time one of my best friends. I had hoped for better for you.

When I left LA for the IRS job in DC, communication with my Scientology friends pretty much stopped. I visited you all twice in 1980, then once in September 1986 (your mom had already split), and later my wife and I dropped in on Stan in 1988 (you were gone). After that, nothing. There was really not much to say to each other, and my position at IRS made continuing the acquaintance awkward.

In any case, I'm glad you are free.

I have more specific memories of your childhood, but they are more perhaps appropriate for a PM. I would also be interested in news of your mom and sister.

Bob Fontenrose

 

[SweetnessandLight]

Hi Bob! Welcome to ESMB! I'm glad you joined us. I'm sure you will fit right in and may connect with some old friends here, or make new ones!

Amy hasn't reposted on this thread since 2008, and I don't know why, but I've been concerned about her. Maybe OSA went after her or maybe she just got busy with real life issues and stopped posting here. Whatever happened, I wish she would just check in here and let us know how she is doing.

People here care about each other's well-being.

I suggest that you send her an email hello via this board (like a pm only it goes to her email, which she might see and respond to.) People won't see a pm if they are not logged in to the board.

Bob, I think you will be a popular guy, due to your recent retirement from IRS, and folks might have some questions for you about private inurment and qualifications and prohibitions for tax-exempt charitable organizations, as many of the members here feel that COS should lose their charitable tax exempt status, being really a money making organization which does very little charitable work, overall.

So glad you are a Non-scientologist. We have several on the board. Feel free to read around the threads, especially posts by Larry Brennan about setting up the corporate structure of RTC (Religious Technology Center) and CST (Church of Spiritual Technology) two of Corporate Scientology's shell/umbrella corporations.

What you will learn here from other survivors (especially Sea Org survivors) will amaze and horrify you.

Again, Welcome! Congrats on your retirement.

 

[olska]

Just to clear up any possible confusion, the Amy who posted as "Dolphin Lover" and started this thread is NOT the same Amy who made video on the thread titled "Amy ex scientology kids" which, after a long silence on that thread, was "bumped" and revived today.

They are two entirely different people with entirely different histories.

HTH

 

[Derwiddian]

Thanks, SweetnessandLight.

I'll try e-mailing Amy as soon as I get board permission.

Also, I will be happy to answer anybody's questions about tax-exempt status, as long as they are general questions. But please note I cannot discuss any matter relating to any specific organization or organizations.

 

[MrNobody]

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I suggest that you send her an email hello via this board (like a pm only it goes to her email, which she might see and respond to.) People won't see a pm if they are not logged in to the board.

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Just a little hint: It all depends how the individual User Account is configured. I've set up the Email Notification, i.e. I get all my PMs per email, so I don't need to log in to see them. I only need to log in to respond.

See Settings / General Settings / Messaging & Notification

HTH

 

[Nicole]

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