SoConfused
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First post, but by no means a troll...just a super sad ex boyfriend wondering if anyone could help shed some light on the demise of my realtionship with my Scientologist girlfriend.
I have never been involved in Scientology nor would I ever. I have been witness to so much of the mainstream media coverage on thew ill's and destruction the church can cause. I met a girl and we had an amazing magnetic chemistry from the start. I might add she is the most beautiful girl in the world in my opinion. This only makes it all harder.
She's from scientology family and was put through all the schooling and was on course until about few years ago. Her parents were big donors with deep ties and I have know idea how that affected her upbringing or development. I believe both are up very high.
Early in the realtionship, she slipped during a night of drinking and said " Well you'll think were all crazy cause we're Scientologist's" ... being very intersested and falling for her I figured we could make it work anyway.
Now while she has a huge network of mostly Scientologist friends, many have gone clear, some have recently reached OT3...She has expressed no desire for the bridge or to commit big money to following the path. Her last work was years ago. She has no problem with my non interest and even says she prefers to get out of the incestuous dating circle in LA of young Scientologists hence choosing me.
I had expressed my questions, asked her questions, asked about OT3 which she doesnt know about despite her family and friends but shes never been ok with talking much about it.
In any case, communivation has never been easy. Normal talks are often treated like attacks or arguments. Shes very defensive and somewhat unstable at times and I'm wondering what correlation to the up bringing there may be. If I'm honest, her 20+ years in the church havent helped her deal with any of the intense and difficult events shes encountered in her life and she is easily overwhelmed. Again no course work in the last few years and still low level.
I loved her imensely and the attraction is phenomenal. We have fun and enjoy the same things. However, she has called it quits saying I've been too critcal...essentially trying to figure out why she acts the way she does sometimes and self medicates so heavily with alcohol. Despite the isssues I just love her.
I'm trying to figure out if it was always doomed and on a ticking clock based on her ties, family and the way she was raised. Often emotionaly unavailbe and semi unstable at times. Very hot and cold. All while we were discussing moving in togther and she often makes jokes about marriage.
Her mother even loved me and didnt care that I was not a scientologist or cared to be one.
I guess I'm just wondering if it's possible to last in the long run being raised so differently with differnent ways to look at life. We do know a couple who are married with kids (One OT / one non SCN).
Looking for answers to help me through the pain cause I do love her so much. Happy to share more. Any thoughts are welcome.
Btw, she states that she'll never disconnect from me because she loves me and I've been a great person in her life. All very confusing.
DID I DODGE A BULLET AND SHOULD I LET THIS GO? I have heard yes from many friends and family.
Thank you
Confused
I have never been involved in Scientology nor would I ever. I have been witness to so much of the mainstream media coverage on thew ill's and destruction the church can cause. I met a girl and we had an amazing magnetic chemistry from the start. I might add she is the most beautiful girl in the world in my opinion. This only makes it all harder.
She's from scientology family and was put through all the schooling and was on course until about few years ago. Her parents were big donors with deep ties and I have know idea how that affected her upbringing or development. I believe both are up very high.
Early in the realtionship, she slipped during a night of drinking and said " Well you'll think were all crazy cause we're Scientologist's" ... being very intersested and falling for her I figured we could make it work anyway.
Now while she has a huge network of mostly Scientologist friends, many have gone clear, some have recently reached OT3...She has expressed no desire for the bridge or to commit big money to following the path. Her last work was years ago. She has no problem with my non interest and even says she prefers to get out of the incestuous dating circle in LA of young Scientologists hence choosing me.
I had expressed my questions, asked her questions, asked about OT3 which she doesnt know about despite her family and friends but shes never been ok with talking much about it.
In any case, communivation has never been easy. Normal talks are often treated like attacks or arguments. Shes very defensive and somewhat unstable at times and I'm wondering what correlation to the up bringing there may be. If I'm honest, her 20+ years in the church havent helped her deal with any of the intense and difficult events shes encountered in her life and she is easily overwhelmed. Again no course work in the last few years and still low level.
I loved her imensely and the attraction is phenomenal. We have fun and enjoy the same things. However, she has called it quits saying I've been too critcal...essentially trying to figure out why she acts the way she does sometimes and self medicates so heavily with alcohol. Despite the isssues I just love her.
I'm trying to figure out if it was always doomed and on a ticking clock based on her ties, family and the way she was raised. Often emotionaly unavailbe and semi unstable at times. Very hot and cold. All while we were discussing moving in togther and she often makes jokes about marriage.
Her mother even loved me and didnt care that I was not a scientologist or cared to be one.
I guess I'm just wondering if it's possible to last in the long run being raised so differently with differnent ways to look at life. We do know a couple who are married with kids (One OT / one non SCN).
Looking for answers to help me through the pain cause I do love her so much. Happy to share more. Any thoughts are welcome.
Btw, she states that she'll never disconnect from me because she loves me and I've been a great person in her life. All very confusing.
DID I DODGE A BULLET AND SHOULD I LET THIS GO? I have heard yes from many friends and family.
Thank you
Confused
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