I'm curious - for what reason?
I've heard that Lisa McPherson had chloral hydrate squirted down her throat with a turkey baster, and that the food on the Freewinds was laced. For all the antipsychiatry rhetoric, I think that the unlicensed practice of psychiatry by Scientologists secretly dosing up other Scientologists scares me a lot more than the psychs.
My question is this - how common is this practice, and do Publics get dosed up on the Failwinds? I just have seen people coming back from that boat so seriously fucked up. Much more fucked up than they come back from AOLA, which can also be counted on to fuck them up good.
I don't mean to derail - I'm just trying to make sense of what I personally experienced.
EVERYTHING Scientology accuses others of doing - they are doing themselves. If you want to stay and play Russian Roulette with your mind - you are free to do that. But just know you don't know who or what in Scientology is going to push you over the edge. The longer you stay in doubt - the more cognitive dissonance you will experience when you finally get out. And everyone gets out one way or another....dead or alive. The question is how much pain do you wish to inflict on yourself?