Hey guys, quick update!
I haven't been back to the org and I don't miss it. Every day I do still get the urge to go and finish my course anyway but it feels so good and liberating when I don't give in to that.
I've only been called once and I did answer but I said I hadn't been feeling well. Which is true by the way, ever since I started doubting the church and wanted to leave I've felt a little sick. I know they'll call again to check when I'm better and can come again but I'm postponing the trouble for now haha. I'm a little scared about ignoring them. I heard it's probably the best way to get them to stop trying to get in contact with me but I just haven't figured out how I'm going to handle this...
These past days I have done a lot of fun things. All of which on my own. I haven't told any of my Church friends that I'm leaving yet.
I still can't fully get my mind off all these mixed feelings (why I want to leave, why I want to stay, why I do like Scientology + Dianetics and why I don't, etc, etc) but this surely is more fun than what I used to do pretty much every day. I found this musical theatre group I wanted to join but unfortunately can't until September. So for now I spend my free time doing a whole bunch of different things. Today I suddenly got the great idea to go to the zoo and draw animals.
I like it this way. I'm doing alright