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Featured Commodores Messenger Book I by Janis Gillham Grady

Discussion in 'Breaking and Major News about Scientology' started by janisgrady, Jul 1, 2017.

  1. phenomanon

    phenomanon Canyon

    My god! I am grief charging over this.
  2. phenomanon

    phenomanon Canyon

    It breaks my heart that this brutality occurred under the authorship of L Ron Hubbard.
    "Mankinds Friend", my old ass!
    I am appalled!
  3. dchoiceisalwaysrs

    dchoiceisalwaysrs Gold Meritorious Patron

    Big hug, and so glad you survived and I wish you all the love in the world.

    What you experienced is so hard for me to 'get my head around' and it shreds my heart to pieces. OMG

    This is in the category of incidents which upon reading about online in 2008 blew me out of scientology within minutes. I was outraged then and I am so again (expletives I will keep to myself) It comes from a very sick mind. ....just unfathomable how wrong this was.
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  4. dchoiceisalwaysrs

    dchoiceisalwaysrs Gold Meritorious Patron

    Janis; I just downloaded and read the ebook in less than 24 hours and it was a good read. The details you put in really help to frame the reality of your experiences. I look forward to your next one and I hope it has some more details on some of the nature and details of the conversations (of course as best as you can recall or reconstruct) you had with or witnessed of ron. I know it is your story and your experiences but any details giving peeks into hubbard's attention and his thinking processes would be additionally educational to me.
    Thanks for standing up telling your story and getting it published as it a valuable resource in learning about the human condition and how the human mind can be such a precarious thing.
    I really liked your quote by Suzanne Collins: " Hope is the only thing stronger than fear" I think it adds to the understanding as to why so many individuals stay in scientology and points up how Ron used both to capture and trap others throughout his life.
  5. ILove2Lurk

    ILove2Lurk Lisbeth Salander

    Ditto that.
  6. vumba

    vumba Danielle Chamberlin

    Thank you that is so kind x
    thank uou! I have to say though, that I’m doing really well and am very happy now !
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  7. phenomanon

    phenomanon Canyon

    That is fine news!!
    I apologize for any possible contribution I made to scn, as an auditor, that allowed this insanity to take place.
    It never should be. It is inexcusable.
    While I was winning and F/Ning, (barf ), in the dark. in the fooking chain locker, small children were being traumatized .
    My god! It is restimulating shit out of me.
    I knew conditions were untenable for me, but I thought it was due to malevolent BTs, not madmen at the wheel.

    I wish that you live now a life of peace and happiness.

    jana (eller) moreillon
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  8. vumba

    vumba Danielle Chamberlin

    Thank you ❤️
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  9. vumba

    vumba Danielle Chamberlin

    I’ve had a very positive, productive and fruitful life since leaving! Thanks for your hugs cx