Commodores Messenger Book I by Janis Gillham Grady

phenomanon

Canyon
I as 11 when ordered by LRH to be confined to the chain locker for a week. Cold, wet, numb and in a dark boiler suit, our plates of mush were passed down to us (there was another young girl in there with me), and someone would escort us to the toilet once or twice a day, then we'd have to go back down into it again. I remember how wet and cold the rusty anchor chain felt and how it had a very strong metallic smell which pervaded our clothing.

At the time, a poor unfortunate soul (whom I won't name for his sake) had had a mental breakdown (their Type III) and was under baby watch. He had fallen in love with a girl who spurned his affections, and it really affected him badly. Whilst I sat in the chain locker, I could hear him up above as he was locked up in one of F'ward cabins. He ripped a mattress with his bare hand and teeth, and pulled wooden panelling off the bulkheads. It was frightening and bewilderingvto me. I have never forgotten him, and I only hope that he made it out and is having/has had a good and happy life.

:console: :hug:
My god! I am grief charging over this.
 

dchoiceisalwaysrs

Gold Meritorious Patron
... and I felt every part of it. It was one of the toughest, most painful times of my life.

Big hug, and so glad you survived and I wish you all the love in the world.

What you experienced is so hard for me to 'get my head around' and it shreds my heart to pieces. OMG

This is in the category of incidents which upon reading about online in 2008 blew me out of scientology within minutes. I was outraged then and I am so again (expletives I will keep to myself) It comes from a very sick mind. ....just unfathomable how wrong this was.
 

dchoiceisalwaysrs

Gold Meritorious Patron
Janis; I just downloaded and read the ebook in less than 24 hours and it was a good read. The details you put in really help to frame the reality of your experiences. I look forward to your next one and I hope it has some more details on some of the nature and details of the conversations (of course as best as you can recall or reconstruct) you had with or witnessed of ron. I know it is your story and your experiences but any details giving peeks into hubbard's attention and his thinking processes would be additionally educational to me.
Thanks for standing up telling your story and getting it published as it a valuable resource in learning about the human condition and how the human mind can be such a precarious thing.
I really liked your quote by Suzanne Collins: " Hope is the only thing stronger than fear" I think it adds to the understanding as to why so many individuals stay in scientology and points up how Ron used both to capture and trap others throughout his life.
 

vumba

Danielle Chamberlin
Big hug, and so glad you survived and I wish you all the love in the world.

What you experienced is so hard for me to 'get my head around' and it shreds my heart to pieces. OMG

This is in the category of incidents which upon reading about online in 2008 blew me out of scientology within minutes. I was outraged then and I am so again (expletives I will keep to myself) It comes from a very sick mind. ....just unfathomable how wrong this was.
Thank you that is so kind x
It breaks my heart that this brutality occurred under the authorship of L Ron Hubbard.
"Mankinds Friend", my old ass!
I am appalled!
thank uou! I have to say though, that I’m doing really well and am very happy now !
 

phenomanon

Canyon
Thank you that is so kind x

thank uou! I have to say though, that I’m doing really well and am very happy now !
That is fine news!!
I apologize for any possible contribution I made to scn, as an auditor, that allowed this insanity to take place.
It never should be. It is inexcusable.
While I was winning and F/Ning, (barf ), in the dark. in the fooking chain locker, small children were being traumatized .
My god! It is restimulating shit out of me.
I knew conditions were untenable for me, but I thought it was due to malevolent BTs, not madmen at the wheel.

I wish that you live now a life of peace and happiness.

jana (eller) moreillon
 

vumba

Danielle Chamberlin
That is fine news!!
I apologize for any possible contribution I made to scn, as an auditor, that allowed this insanity to take place.
It never should be. It is inexcusable.
While I was winning and F/Ning, (barf ), in the dark. in the fooking chain locker, small children were being traumatized .
My god! It is restimulating shit out of me.
I knew conditions were untenable for me, but I thought it was due to malevolent BTs, not madmen at the wheel.

I wish that you live now a life of peace and happiness.

jana (eller) moreillon
Thank you ❤️
 
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