Gold Meritorious Patron
about two years ago I was at some org event, . In the middle of it, I saw it was turning into a reg event, and said to myself – oh shit, how do I get out of here. So I went outside and had a smoke. Thinking to myself, god dam, I’m a scientologists, and want to help, but fuck, I’m broke, and I want to do the bridge, but of course I want to help IAS, you know clear the planet. Damn I’m thinking to myself, something is not right, but I can’t put my finger on it. Some guy was there as well. I says to him, god damn, I hate this. It always turns into a reg event for money.
He turns to me and says, hey listen, if you can contribute, then go ahead. If you can’t, then utilize some power, hold your position. and don’t give any money. Just hold your position. He then walked away. I thought about it. Many thoughts, tone of thoughts at the time. I decided to hold my position. I went back in.
At the end, they tried to reg me, but I held my position.
While driving home, I realized, looking it over. Hey, I did have some power. Didn’t matter where I was on the grade chart. I stuck to Code of Honor, I stuck to holding my position. I had a win – something I intended to do, or something I intended not to do.. I was really blown out driving home, cranked the tunes on the radio. I had a win I was being OT to a certain degree, cause over thought, matter, energy , space and time.
No no no no no
I cried so hard, I laughed.
This is an OT ability gained. A win.
Guess that makes all ESMB'ers OT.