Denise Brennan – Just another chat thread

[Udarnik]

Hi Denise and all good Chat Threadians. Good news out this way. I've ran a slew of tests at the V.A., from basic vitals to a cranial C.A.T. scan all of which are negative. The one remaining test is an E.E.G. which I'm looking forward to getting done. The people at the V.A. were fantastic and the doctor was great. His take on this is that I was under a huge amount of stress, short on sleep and my blood pressure dropped suddenly. I normally take a medication for anxiety in the form of a mood stabilizer but stopped taking it which in hindsight has been a mistake on my part. I'm going to that correct shortly because not taking it has had a serious negative personal impact in my life. Thank you all for your kind caring concern and support. Namaste.

Awesome news! And I'm really happy about you getting a good VA doc, because that system is a crapshoot, I know from personal experience.

 

[JustMe]

I would like to make an announcement about my very dear friend Nancy Many as she is not often on here to make it herself.

After years of study and internship, Nancy has just completed her Masters in Pastoral Ministry from Loyola University.

I am proud to call Nancy a friend, a sister and a soul mate. She has an amazing goodness in her heart and has helped so many through life crises even those soon to death. And while recent examples of that were part of her internships, it is also part of her beautiful nature.

Even back when few were speaking out about the horrors of organized scientology, Nancy shared her home with people getting out as more or less an "underground railroad" to freedom for those who had nowhere else to go. She welcomed them with open arms and helped in any way she could.

And that is despite all that was done to hurt her as she shared in her amazing book: "My Billion Year Contract":

http://mybillionyearcontract.com/


Nancy was the first to know I was transgender, even before I ever saw a therapist or a doctor on the subject. She supported me from the first second of hearing it, hugging me and calling me her sister.

And she has been with me throughout my journey as I have tried to be there for her throughout hers.

Here is a link to a ceremony Nancy and I did at her place. And while it was about both of our journeys into what we call a divine femininity, it was very much about my leaving my past life behind and her helping me move on as just me:

http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthre...er-chat-thread&p=809043&viewfull=1#post809043


And then the next day to complete one step of that ceremony:

http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthre...er-chat-thread&p=809057&viewfull=1#post809057


Anyway, congratulations Nancy.

And thank you for all you have done over the many years to help others.

I love you!

 

[SweetnessandLight]

Oh, Nancy, I am so very proud of you and your accomplishing this new goal in life! I know that you will help so very many hurting people.

Wish you all the best as you continue on this path of your new career!

 

[jenni with an eye]

Nancy

 

[appledore3]

Thank you Denise, and Jenni, and Just me,

It has been an intense three years of work to get to here and it hasn't really hit me yet that I will have some "time" for myself now. December is so busy anyway, I think I will notice in January. I am looking forward to catching up on all the books and movies I have missed, and people I haven't been able to stay in touch with.

Learning is an important part of life, whether formal or informal, I don't plan on stopping that. But, the formal part,,, well, that's over. Now I am free to take workshops!!!

Denise's journey and all the dear friends that she has collected are so precious to me. Friends of my friend are my friends forever!!!!

Maybe next year I will have the time to check in more often...

love you guys!
nancy

 

[Maria]

This morning I have been thinking of so many of you I have gotten to know in one way or another over the years. And I was thinking of the laughs many of us have had on and off of ESMB as well as tears shed together as we shared our lives and friendships developed.

And I know that some people here often feel alone, some even mostly physically restricted to the places where they live.

But the truth is none of us here are alone. What happens here are friendships that are nonetheless real just because circumstances dictate that they develop in a cyber world or on the phone or skype.

And whether you post actively on here, just once in a while or not at all you can become so very close with others on here. If you feel alone, especially at this time of the approaching holidays, please know you are not. And know that despite our differences of opinion from time to time, it is our common humanity that joins us at the heart.

And no matter how alone you might feel, you can always close your eyes and feel that indeed you are not.

You have friends.

Right here.

We all have angels in our lives,

They are called "friends".

I'll just put this here for you my angels............ I love you:

I can't tell you exactly what this words meant to me. I do have a good life, but I've been through so much this year that just keeping it all together leaves me feeling extremely tired and alone. I barely have the energy to read posts, much less to post myself, but this one just went straight to my heart.

You are an amazing person, and have no idea how much you have help me just by sharing your story and been the wonderful person you are!

 

[Free Being Me]

Thank you Denise, and Jenni, and Just me,

It has been an intense three years of work to get to here and it hasn't really hit me yet that I will have some "time" for myself now. December is so busy anyway, I think I will notice in January. I am looking forward to catching up on all the books and movies I have missed, and people I haven't been able to stay in touch with.

Learning is an important part of life, whether formal or informal, I don't plan on stopping that. But, the formal part,,, well, that's over. Now I am free to take workshops!!!

Denise's journey and all the dear friends that she has collected are so precious to me. Friends of my friend are my friends forever!!!!

Maybe next year I will have the time to check in more often...

love you guys!
nancy

 

[Free Being Me]

This morning I have been thinking of so many of you I have gotten to know in one way or another over the years. And I was thinking of the laughs many of us have had on and off of ESMB as well as tears shed together as we shared our lives and friendships developed.

And I know that some people here often feel alone, some even mostly physically restricted to the places where they live.

But the truth is none of us here are alone. What happens here are friendships that are nonetheless real just because circumstances dictate that they develop in a cyber world or on the phone or skype.

And whether you post actively on here, just once in a while or not at all you can become so very close with others on here. If you feel alone, especially at this time of the approaching holidays, please know you are not. And know that despite our differences of opinion from time to time, it is our common humanity that joins us at the heart.

And no matter how alone you might feel, you can always close your eyes and feel that indeed you are not.

You have friends.

Right here.

We all have angels in our lives,

They are called "friends".

I'll just put this here for you my angels............ I love you:

[video=youtube;7X7d7Ul6PmI]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7X7d7Ul6PmI[/video]
​

 

[JustMe]

Thank you Denise, and Jenni, and Just me,

It has been an intense three years of work to get to here and it hasn't really hit me yet that I will have some "time" for myself now. December is so busy anyway, I think I will notice in January. I am looking forward to catching up on all the books and movies I have missed, and people I haven't been able to stay in touch with.

Learning is an important part of life, whether formal or informal, I don't plan on stopping that. But, the formal part,,, well, that's over. Now I am free to take workshops!!!

Denise's journey and all the dear friends that she has collected are so precious to me. Friends of my friend are my friends forever!!!!

Maybe next year I will have the time to check in more often...

love you guys!
nancy

And another thing Nancy for today ........ December 10:

​

Have a wonderful trip this month.

Purple and I will see you in January for the pajama party weekend of the year. Massachusetts you have been warned!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And this time we WILL get the cookies right!!!!1111!!!!!!

 

[JustMe]

I can't tell you exactly what this words meant to me. I do have a good life, but I've been through so much this year that just keeping it all together leaves me feeling extremely tired and alone. I barely have the energy to read posts, much less to post myself, but this one just went straight to my heart..........

Thank you so much Maria for your heartfelt post.

You are most welcome here in our gathering of friendship.

You are not alone.

 

[Free Being Me]

Happy Birthday, Nancy!

 

[JustMe]

Well the dynamic duo is once again together.

I picked up Purple at the airport last night, took her home and force-fed her two bowls of my [STRIKE]world famous[/STRIKE] .....[STRIKE]locally famous[/STRIKE]......OK fine "my-daughter-loves-it famous"......home-made stew and apple cyder.

We have decided that this month we will make our second online tutorial (the first was how to make a self-hydrating chilly margareta). This one will be on how to make a gingerbread house while drinking self-hydrating chilly margaretas. We will do it for love, for science and for the love of science.

When I picked her up last night she was so excited about the little bit of snow we have and immediately wanted to make a snowman. As there was only an inch on the ground there and we were in the airport parking lot at 10:30 at night, we decided to wait for the first big snowfall. So watch out as we may make our third online tutorial which will be how to make a snowman while drinking self-hydrating chilly margaretas and eating gingerbread houses.

One bit of bad news is that apparently the night elf character I made for myself so that I could play with Purple on World of Warcraft is a mortal enemy of her character a blood elf.


Whatever will we do???

Anyway she's here safely.

 

[Udarnik]

Well the dynamic duo is once again together.

I picked up Purple at the airport last night, took her home and force-fed her two bowls of my [STRIKE]world famous[/STRIKE] .....[STRIKE]locally famous[/STRIKE]......OK fine "my-daughter-loves-it famous"......home-made stew and apple cyder.

We have decided that this month we will make our second online tutorial (the first was how to make a self-hydrating chilly margareta). This one will be on how to make a gingerbread house while drinking self-hydrating chilly margaretas. We will do it for love, for science and for the love of science.

When I picked her up last night she was so excited about the little bit of snow we have and immediately wanted to make a snowman. As there was only an inch on the ground there and we were in the airport parking lot at 10:30 at night, we decided to wait for the first big snowfall. So watch out as we may make our third online tutorial which will be how to make a snowman while drinking self-hydrating chilly margaretas and eating gingerbread houses.

One bit of bad news is that apparently the night elf character I made for myself so that I could play with Purple on World of Warcraft is a mortal enemy of her character a blood elf.


Whatever will we do???

Anyway she's here safely.

Uh oh. Trouble's a-brewin' in NH. Glad I'm leaving the country, soon.

And we had enough snow to make a snowman. Got up this morning, and for some reason he was tilted 30 degrees to his right. I think he might have been hitting your margaritas.

 

[The_Fixer]

Sorry, haven't been around much as of late. Been busy dealing with things that haven't been adding to my Xmas cheer, but there it is.

Maybe more later.

Anyway, have been doing the rounds on memory lane and have found a couple of items that hit me about how times change.

Firstly, a song I've always liked...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qpJ0cyXbMbI

Fast forward about 40 years......

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aRZ6LaL-MNI

Now these 2 versions are really quite different. But I must say I really enjoy the energy in the later one. I really quite like it.

But it stuns me how much different Steve Harley looks 40 years later.

 

[JustMe]

Sorry, haven't been around much as of late. Been busy dealing with things that haven't been adding to my Xmas cheer, but there it is.

Maybe more later.

Anyway, have been doing the rounds on memory lane and have found a couple of items that hit me about how times change.

Firstly, a song I've always liked...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qpJ0cyXbMbI

Fast forward about 40 years......

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aRZ6LaL-MNI

Now these 2 versions are really quite different. But I must say I really enjoy the energy in the later one. I really quite like it.

But it stuns me how much different Steve Harley looks 40 years later.

Fixer it is so nice to see you again. And I'm sorry about your having to deal with things upsetting.

If and when you'd like to post about it, I am all "ears".

I love the music you included. Agreed about the second one, I liked the energy and how it was more upbeat.

I remember watching Don Mclean live in concert in 1971/72 in Scranton, Pennsylvania and again in an indoor setting right here in New Hampshire just a few years ago. And yes he really aged but he still could hit that high note. And it was an amazing concert. I got to chat with him afterwards and he was nice enough to sign a note on one of his CDs dedicated to Uwe Stuckenbrock which I sent on to his brother in Germany.

I got to love Don even more when I got to "know" him by having a few minutes to just chat personally. It's amazing how you can find a real closeness to anyone if you just try and she/he does as well.

I look at my two times seeing Don that were separated by decades and noted the big physical changes in him. But the funny thing is that I did not feel one bit different myself in those two times, the first in college and the second here. Like I have not aged one tiny bit nor looked at life differently at all. I have the exact same views and way I look at myself and life no mater the huge physical changes.

I see the world marching along, changing, aging but I am not. I feel that is true for all of us but I am not sure. I just know I see things that way, like an ageless child.

Must rush to work but more later including Purple getting me totally addicted to World of Warcraft.

So happy to see you again.

 

[JustMe]

Good Goddess but Purple has got me addicted to World of Warcraft.

I became a blood elf hunter so that I could be on her side. OMG me a hunter????

Still in my defense my character is a hottee and blood elf hunters love the woods which has "me" written all over it. Plus I have a dragon friend who fights to protect me any time someone else tries to mess with me. How cool is that!!!

Here I am with my dragon companion.:

​

While I am a level 6 (basically not much more than a newbee) Purple is like a level gazillion and is out in the kitchen on her computer trying to get to level gazillion and one as I type this.

We may never hear from her again. :wink2::wink2::wink2:

But give her a break, she is out saving the worlds.

 

[The_Fixer]

Since it is the time of year, here is an offering in it's original language. It always sounds the best in German to my mind anyway.

Denise, you should be familiar with this lady.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pLkr_WYvHec

Copied from somewhere else:

Origin: "Stille Nacht" is a famous Christmas Carol that is sung around the world at Christmas time. The song was written by Father Joseph Mohr in around 1816 and later set to a melody by an Austrian schoolmaster, choir master and church organist, Franz Xaver Gruber, in 1818. "Stille Nacht", as it was called, was first performed on Christmas Eve at "St Nicholas", Father Mohr's parish church, in the small town of Obendorf bei Salzburg in Austria.

During World War I the song was sung on both sides of the trenches, when German, British and French soldiers climbed over the barbwire and joined together in No-Man's-Land on Christmas Eve. It was the only song all the different nationalities knew, and was sung by all the groups simultaneously in their own language. That exceptional winter night and the remarkable days that followed - when peace reigned on the battlefield of war through a collective belief in Jesus Christ and the celebration of Christmas - later became known as the "Christmas truce" of 1914.

In a similar way, it was also again sung by enemies - both German and American soldiers during World War II - on Christmas Eve of 1944. This occurred when small groups from the two opposing sides became lost in the winter snow in the midst of the Hurtgen Forest near the German-Belgian border, and were both given shelter in the same cottage by a Christian German woman and her son (represented in the film "Truce in the Forest", and also retold by the German boy, Fritz Vincken, in 1973). Following the joint celebration of the birth of Christ, the German medic medically treated the wounded American soldier, and after passing Christmas night together, both groups parted ways in peace each to rejoin their own lines the following day.

 

[The_Fixer]

Another find:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dfmMOZ_TqyI

East meets West.

 

[sallydannce]

Another find:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dfmMOZ_TqyI

East meets West.

Mesmerising. Truly beautiful.

Wow! Thank you The_Fixer. Just wow!

This music inspires, deeply. My ex went to Tibet. I have stories he shared with me upon his return. I have the most exquisite photos. I have the most gorgeous jewelry from there. I want to write more but I don’t want to bore anyone.

The way this man’s voice moves – is that called vibrato? I should look it up I suppose.

This music is beyond beauty. I am going to listen to it with my eyes closed. Always a dilemma, wanting to watch the musicians but also wanting only to hear and feel their creation. A beautiful dilemma.

 

[JustMe]

Mesmerising. Truly beautiful.

Wow! Thank you The_Fixer. Just wow!

This music inspires, deeply. My ex went to Tibet. I have stories he shared with me upon his return. I have the most exquisite photos. I have the most gorgeous jewelry from there. I want to write more but I don’t want to bore anyone.

The way this man’s voice moves – is that called vibrato? I should look it up I suppose.

This music is beyond beauty. I am going to listen to it with my eyes closed. Always a dilemma, wanting to watch the musicians but also wanting only to hear and feel their creation. A beautiful dilemma.

I agree.

Fixer thank you so much.

This weekend I am going to lay down and listen to this with my eyes closed and see where it takes me.

I just know it will be to a beautiful place.

This is the sort of thing I call "faery song". That kind that lets you sort of drift "home" for awhile.