After being a part of Scientology over the last 10 yrs I finally ventured into the forbidden zone and looked into “that which we do not speak of”. The tech just wasn’t adding up and was contradicting it’s self so I had to take a look for myself. Long story and I will share more about this later, however for now I just want to say that Scientology’s policy on anonymous is ignore, I was told this by an auditor in a very stern manor when I told him I had stumbled upon the anonymous site as he was asking me what overts (crimes) I had committed. This policy “Ignore” didn’t make sense to me as admiration, confronting and communication is the universal solvent per LRH. There is also references were he goes on about being pan determined, to look at both viewpoints which I felt ignore violated.
Anyways, I left because I thought there was out tech. It was only then that I really took a look on the internet to see what others were saying. HELLO! Welcome to real present time!...lol. That was a whole reality adjustment, at first you want to believe that the tech was just miss-applied and that LRH is still the man, source, the enlightened profit that Buddha spoke of and LRH claimed he was.
Leaving Scientology is hard because you have to not only admit you were scammed, but you fail for it so hard that your goals were to save and help others and you “knew” and those not in Scientology were the innocent little lambs that haven’t figured it out yet, poor cute little creatures who do not know what they do cause they are being controlled by the reactive mind, circuits, demon circuits, implants, overt motivator sequence and SP’s. Help my state of Homo-novas as deflated! What now?
Sit back and decompress baby!
While decompressing you really can’t sit back because there are those in the church who try to “handle” you and get you back in. In my case I also had a family member who was a staff member for the last 10 yrs and I knew she would be told I was out ethics and she needed handle or disconnect. (ref: PTSness and Disconnection pg.205 of Intro to Scn Ethics) Yes it exists, the church doesn’t “make you disconnect” they make you apply ethics and decide for yourself if you are going to handle or disconnect, and when you can’t, handle i.e.. make the person agree with scientology then you are left with disconnect. That’s the way that rolls and they love to play split the f***ing hair on that one.
Currently my question to those that have got out is this. I just left the church about a month ago or so and have requested a refund. (don’t even come at me with a refund is wrong cause the backlash will hurt…lol) After them taking more than a month to get back to me when I called in today I was given the OSA terminals phone # and he wants me to come in and do the routing form. Anyone ever walk this line? I’m meeting with him tomorrow.
tech....
TDOG - glad you made it out.
