Denise, I think you are amazing for being so kind-hearted towards Marty despite what you went through. You are an amazing lady. Also, I will say it again, the fact that you, Panda, Face, JohnAnchovie, Smurf, and others have made public, sincere apologies for what you did while in Scientology while Marty can't even say that he was personally responsible for terrible things (without blaming DM or suggesting that nothing wrong was done - see the kidnapping of Annie Tidman) demonstrates who has character and who is desperately trying to hold on to a ghost.
I don't personally care if he's a Scientologist or not. I do care that he's never said "I am sorry for any role I had in the death of Lisa McPherson and cover-up afterwards" or "I am sorry I ever was responsible for sending anyone to the RPF."
I don't personally care if he's a Scientologist or not. I do care that he's never said "I am sorry for any role I had in the death of Lisa McPherson and cover-up afterwards" or "I am sorry I ever was responsible for sending anyone to the RPF."
I know that comes from your heart and, as always, I greatly respect your views.
Now let me explain FWIW. I suspect many will disagree with this which of course is fine.
In my final days posting as Larry I tried to make what I felt were several important posts before my final thread where I pretty much imploded on here taking off my mask of "Larry" and trying to introduce the real me. In the few days before that I made final postings as Larry trying to really show how it is the truth that will take down scientology in its present form, introducing everyone to my beautiful granddaughter and then giving my views on Marty.
What I had say about Marty was this post:
http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthre...Y-HOSTILE-thread-by-Marty&p=674031#post674031
I am no better than any of us including Marty, I do not wish to hurt anyone and post more from my heart than my mind. I could be wrong but I feel Marty is in a deep, dark place and he doesn't even know it. It saddens me to think of what he has yet to go through.
But I felt it was important to review his two books for the reasons I gave in the reviews. I tried to be kind and validate him for the "good parts" and for trying.
I often reflect on what I feel is one of the most beautiful Anon vids prepared by L Ron Hu88ard called "The Lighthouse Letter".
The whole poem gets to me and often brings me to tears as it so gently shows the awful pain of disconnection in scientology. The below bit from the the beginning of that poem gets to me the most. It makes me think of those lost in the deep, dark cavern of scientology yet there is still hope for them and we should help them out and give them a hand to find their way out to the dazzing light of freedom. We can even be their eyes to get out of the darkness. It went something like this:
Deep within a cavern dark
A spring of truth abides
How I hope your find this bottle
My kisses are inside
The light outside is dazzling
Escape's a costly prize
But gentle reader grasp my hand
And I shall be your eyes.
This may never happen and Marty may hate me, and never ever reach out to me for help. He probably thinks I am crazy if he thinks of me at all. My reviews probably annoy him as they are sitting there as the first reviews to see when anyone wants to check out his books on Amazon. But my hand is out there for him to help him get out too. And while my reviews showed some major disagreements with what he wrote, they also showed where I agreed with him.
Anyway all of the above is why I gave the reviews three stars out of five. I did not try to review the books for their lack of literary quality. I would probably do no better.