Sharone Stainforth
Silver Meritorious Patron
It's late, I'm tired and what I most want to do, is go to bed. Unfortunately there is NO rest for the wicked. I'm an SP right, and I'm going to natter.
Nattering is not a word I use, and with very good reason, however lately it is on topic.
Tonight I am going to natter.
I don't know if what I am about to say will hurt anyone, and my hope and intention is not to do so, but it is what it is, not natter but the truth.
In early 1969 Hana Whitfield was my guard, whilst I was stuck in the hold of the Apollo. She was the only terminal i was able to communicate with. She had a lovely smile, and was the only person with whom I felt able to talk to, or in fact was able to talk to. Her smile kept me going, it was the only thing I was able to hang onto. She couldn't and wasn't all bad, even though she was one of them. By them, I mean one of Hubbards accomplices in his grand scheme of "clearing the planet".
Be under no illusions, this is very hard for me to write, and I mean no malice towards Hana. In fact the complete opposite, recently when I saw Hana speaking in Hamburg , Germany, I cried and cried, because this woman whom I had once known on the Apollo, whom I hadn't really realised it at the time was in fact my jailor.You have no idea how much this hurt, as when all said and done, she was instrumental in my getting off the Apollo. I do not know what was going on in her mind, and quite evidently she did not know what was going on in mine. I am torn, totally torn between what IS right and what IS wrong.
I know that what happened on the Apollo IS totally wrong, yet I am torn because I have always sought to see why good intentioned people would behave the way they did and in many cases still do.
As I have already said, hearing Hanas' speech really enlightened me into how brainwashed people can be, when they think they are doing good. It IS a frightening thing to learn that people can justify abuse, because one man said this IS the only way.
For all you nay sayers on L. Ron Hubbards works, I suggest you read ALL the things written and said by Hana Eltringham/ Whitfield. Scientology considers Hana to be a false wittness on their RFW hate site, I on the other hand consider Hana to represent the facts as was wittnessed by myself and many others abourd the ship of thought control, which strongly dominated ALL of our lives.
http://www.lermanet.com/cos/newhana.html
http://www.lermanet.com/scientologynews/psychiatrictimes-1991.html
http://www.xenu-directory.net/critics/whitfield1.html
http://www.xenu-directory.net/news/library.php?t=Hana+Eltringham+Whitfield
http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthread.php?t=17128
http://www.Spaink.net/cos/mpoulter/sods/whitfiel.html
Hana, if by some small chance you happen to read this, I do forgive what you felt was right at the time, whether you realised it or not, you did help me, even if unintentionally, you were instrumental in getting me away from the life you lived for the next 18 years, for that I am eternally grateful.
Your name was one of the first people I googled, as someone I knew back then. I am very sorry for all that you went through, and I am so proud of you for coming out the other side. Thank you, for all you have done and continue to do to stamp out these ruthless liars of so called salvation.
Nattering is not a word I use, and with very good reason, however lately it is on topic.
Tonight I am going to natter.
I don't know if what I am about to say will hurt anyone, and my hope and intention is not to do so, but it is what it is, not natter but the truth.
In early 1969 Hana Whitfield was my guard, whilst I was stuck in the hold of the Apollo. She was the only terminal i was able to communicate with. She had a lovely smile, and was the only person with whom I felt able to talk to, or in fact was able to talk to. Her smile kept me going, it was the only thing I was able to hang onto. She couldn't and wasn't all bad, even though she was one of them. By them, I mean one of Hubbards accomplices in his grand scheme of "clearing the planet".
Be under no illusions, this is very hard for me to write, and I mean no malice towards Hana. In fact the complete opposite, recently when I saw Hana speaking in Hamburg , Germany, I cried and cried, because this woman whom I had once known on the Apollo, whom I hadn't really realised it at the time was in fact my jailor.You have no idea how much this hurt, as when all said and done, she was instrumental in my getting off the Apollo. I do not know what was going on in her mind, and quite evidently she did not know what was going on in mine. I am torn, totally torn between what IS right and what IS wrong.
I know that what happened on the Apollo IS totally wrong, yet I am torn because I have always sought to see why good intentioned people would behave the way they did and in many cases still do.
As I have already said, hearing Hanas' speech really enlightened me into how brainwashed people can be, when they think they are doing good. It IS a frightening thing to learn that people can justify abuse, because one man said this IS the only way.
For all you nay sayers on L. Ron Hubbards works, I suggest you read ALL the things written and said by Hana Eltringham/ Whitfield. Scientology considers Hana to be a false wittness on their RFW hate site, I on the other hand consider Hana to represent the facts as was wittnessed by myself and many others abourd the ship of thought control, which strongly dominated ALL of our lives.
http://www.lermanet.com/cos/newhana.html
http://www.lermanet.com/scientologynews/psychiatrictimes-1991.html
http://www.xenu-directory.net/critics/whitfield1.html
http://www.xenu-directory.net/news/library.php?t=Hana+Eltringham+Whitfield
http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthread.php?t=17128
http://www.Spaink.net/cos/mpoulter/sods/whitfiel.html
Hana, if by some small chance you happen to read this, I do forgive what you felt was right at the time, whether you realised it or not, you did help me, even if unintentionally, you were instrumental in getting me away from the life you lived for the next 18 years, for that I am eternally grateful.
Your name was one of the first people I googled, as someone I knew back then. I am very sorry for all that you went through, and I am so proud of you for coming out the other side. Thank you, for all you have done and continue to do to stamp out these ruthless liars of so called salvation.