Hello, and a little bit of my story

Sunmeltingsnow

New Member
Can I cross post some of this from another forum? I suddenly realized I needed to get this out and, after 25 years, talk to other people who were there, either at Flag or in the SO anywhere else in the world. People who understand. So, let me know if it's not OK to cross post this from another site.

Hello everyone. It is so good to know that a forum for people like us exists.

About me: I've been out of the Sea Org since the mid-90s, but it took me years to even be able to think about it, much less talk about it. I got in as a teenager, and was later joined by my dad. We did the EPF at Flag, and although we were supposed to be going somewhere else we ended up staying (mostly due to my mom and her custody agreement). Over time, I also did full time training in LA. (My mind is fuzzy on details and I forget the name of the building. It was at Hollywood and Ivar.) Eventually, due to threatened legal action from my mom for being out of state without her knowing, I was sent away until I turned 18. I tried to come back, kinda freaked out, and eventually blew. My dad routed out at some point later and became public. When he left from that he had a TON of intimidation and legal trouble.


I started googling and searching yesterday because I had a dream about my boyfriend in the SO. I googled him last night, and found his name mentioned on a thread in another form.. I thought maybe it was time to talk about everything. Maybe even find people who were there at the same time?


I'm sorry this is choppy, I keep editing out lines of details, afraid that after all this time there might be someone lurking that would give me a hard time. All these years and I'm still paranoid. Thanks, SO!
 

Leland

Crusader
Hello Sunmeltingsnow. :)

Thanks for your first, heartfelt post. Very touching.

I'm sure you'll find some here that you know....or knew you....

I was in LA myself for 20 years....but I was older...and not in the SO.....so doubt our paths crossed.

Hope you are doing better now....AND

Congratulations on getting out.

I've been out for 14 years.

All the best.
 

Sunmeltingsnow

New Member
Thank you for the welcome. It seems that now that I've decided to think about it everything had to come tumbling out.

If you weren't in the SO then our paths probably didn't cross. I was off property a grand total of twice while I was there.

Congratulations on 14 years!
 

I told you I was trouble

Suspended animation



You can cross post as much as you like Sunmeltingsnow.

Many of us are still hanging here for people just like you (well, that and for the laughs) so, come on in and I hope you find your old friends.


:welcome:
 

AnonyMary

Formerly Fooled - Finally Free
Hello, Sunmeltingsnow~ so glad to see another person speaking out!

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I can sense excitement you are experiencing in having opened up to others on the internet!! Reminds me of when I went from lurking to speaking out! I am not alone here in looking forward to hearing more from you about your experiences and life after Scientology

When you have a few minutes, check out this thread on the forum called
Internet Resources on Scientology for newcomers

It was started by another member using links of information I found on the internet which I began to collect and share with others. It's not all up to date but there is some amazing personal stories and information listed there which helped me and many others in our recovery and understanding. There is so such information out there now... this thread is a good start for getting a perspective on the history of those who left and spoke out before us.

Internet Resources on Scientology for newcomers
http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthread.php?21499-Internet-Resources-on-Scientology-for-newcomers

Mary McConnell
 

Dulloldfart

Squirrel Extraordinaire
Welcome, sunny one. I was in the SO at ITO (HGB at Hollywood and Ivar) between 1989 and 1995, mostly as a course sup.

Paul Adams
 

Sunmeltingsnow

New Member
You all for the extremely warm welcome. Your comments have made me feel so much better about speaking up.

Mary, thank you for the link. I've spent the last 36 hours reading what feels like the entire Internet. But I can't stop. I will be sure to check it out.

Paul, I'm sure we crossed paths! I saw in another thread that you mentioned going up to Griffith Observatory. That's exactly what I did my only two days off. Those two days are my happiest memories. I was just sitting here thinking about it, and I realized that my top experiences are all freedom of movement: going to Griffith Observatory and rollerskating to PAC base each night. Gee, I wonder why.

I've been digging around the forums here, searching for names and pictures. I very nearly, literally and figuratively, fell out of my chair over the Tabayoyon family. Cas and I were friends. I feel so lucky to get out as relatively easily as I did.
 

Enthetan

Master of Disaster
Paul, I'm sure we crossed paths! I saw in another thread that you mentioned going up to Griffith Observatory. That's exactly what I did my only two days off. Those two days are my happiest memories. I was just sitting here thinking about it, and I realized that my top experiences are all freedom of movement: going to Griffith Observatory and rollerskating to PAC base each night. Gee, I wonder why.

When I was in PAC, I had a motorcycle. After post, I really used to like going up into the Hollywood hills and getting to a point where I could just sit there and look out over the city from up in the hills.

I also liked riding over to Hollywood Blvd, visiting a comic book store there, getting a comic, getting a slice of pizza, and just reading my comic and eating my pizza in peace.
 

Sunmeltingsnow

New Member
When I was in PAC, I had a motorcycle. After post, I really used to like going up into the Hollywood hills and getting to a point where I could just sit there and look out over the city from up in the hills.

I also liked riding over to Hollywood Blvd, visiting a comic book store there, getting a comic, getting a slice of pizza, and just reading my comic and eating my pizza in peace.

That sounds just about perfect. (Both spots) I was up there once at night and I will never forget how beautiful and peaceful it was.
 

vumba

Danielle Chamberlin
Hi and well done for being brave enough to put your first words down. It took me a long, long time to pluck up the courage to post my story on here, but once I did, I found a very supportive and loving community. I was at St Hill and Flag in 1980/81. Welcome, welcome. Share away :yes::yes:
 
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