I am freaking out right now, I thought I've gotten enough balls to finally open up and just writing a couple of post to get started have me in a really emotional state, I was in the Sea Org at Flag, I was a sup, my memory is really bad these days and I can't remember exact dates, but I counted 4 sea org days while I was there, I live in a place were there is a major base 10 miles from my house but I successfully disconnected from them without getting declared or having any reason to contact me, I only knew scientologist and when I left it was absolute, i have not said one word to a member of the church or about the church in five years, I think about them coming to my job to harass me constantly and just posting this makes me feel like I'm putting myself at risk, giving away to many details of my story might give my identity away, haven't seen my family in many years and work 10 hour days 7 days a week and still not getting paid what I should, but if there was one thing I learned in the sea org, it was how to work, I hope to meet some people that can help me with what feels like serious PTSD, I would like to meet individuals in person, I still don't trust the Internet very much, thanks everyone