Hello Immortal and welcome!
You have a wonderful clean flow of communication and I found your story really interesting. I believe that there are so many people withholding like you say and hopefully they will get to the point where they can freely communicate their considerations regarding the present day activities of the Church.
Glad to have you here.
Clean flow = sincere, honest, genuine
Immortal, if I were you, I wouldn't stand in front of this Mac truck. Mac offered me a ride in his truck....he said "trust me"....I accepted and rode in it. What appeared to be safe and friendly turned out to be rather unsafe, unfriendly, rather hostile and a bit dangerous. After the ride he ran me over....and there is no mistaking the feeling of being run over by a Mac truck. :shock:
After running me down he said something to the effect of not being able to please everyone and he was going to please himself.
I had never had this kind of experience before and hope to never have it ever again. A few months later he sent me a band-aid, which I assume was to cover up the wounds....unfortunately it didn't take the pain away.....I wish it had.
Immortal you are right....you would be a fool to stand in front of a Mac truck and let it run you down. Unfortunately I was trusting enough to become that fool, and it's still painful.
Mac introduced me to his brother, and now we have bees in our backyard, thanks to Mac's brother.
I had a lot of other comments towards your post, but directing them at you would be incorrect.
To this though, I say TIME heals and brings light. I think enough time around them and realization of truth skewed = questions burning to be answered. Attempting to "clear" the MU leads towards the real truth of what they are hiding which snowballs towards what else is being denied.
Freedom comes to those who seek the truth.
Well Done on leaving the suppressive CO$ !
Here are some excellent sites, additional to others recommended, from 3 years of study on the net:
http://www.skeptictank.org/gs/crimtime.htm
This one is long, but very enlightening on the hidden history. From it mostly I
compiled a list of Miscavige's crimes that extended to a column and one half,
which were not separate incidents but only types of crimes.
http://www.robertdam-cos.dk/
This is probably the best for "one-stop shopping" with a good story followed by 36 links that will answer many questions- a real Pandora's Box here.
Books:
LRH: Madman Or Messiah by Bent Corydon
My Billion Year Contract by Nancy Many
These likely are the two most informative books covering a wide area of the CO$ experiences.
Many more, of course, but you might already be overwhelmed with reading.
Thank you for posting.
IM! I hope you enjoy it here. I sure have.
I know what you mean about fear. But I'm not afraid any more. I hope you are getting over it. Are you?
I am late to this party (which is usual, BTW).
Ask ask ask, anything and everthing
We are here
This is why
Mac introduced me to his brother, and now we have bees in our backyard, thanks to Mac's brother.
Reminds me of being on staff. Chaotic with undertones of paranoia, evil, confusion and apathy.
Many of their episodes suck, but, I love Millenium nowdays (could barely watch it when it came out)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1SyHLXvqPdY
Zinj
doubt doubt doubt, anything and everything.
I'm not saying we're all liars - I'm just saying it's GOOD and HEALTHY to question, to doubt, to request evidence and reasoning. This is something Scientology has spent a lot of time training you not to do, and I can't emphasize enough its importance. Nobody promotes 'trust' as a virtue more than a conman.
Don't get paranoid, don't let yourself get bogged down, but don't accept anything as 'true' just because it sounds good or someone asserted it strongly.
(but the advice in the post I quoted IS terrific advice)
Congrats on your decision and bravery, Immortal. Hope you have good experiences outside Scientology and in your own life.