Welcome Dark Phoenix! I like so much of what you have said already. I love it that there are so many cat avatars. And I am going to grow old as one of those old ladies with too many cats but I am currently living with only 2(but they are so sentient).
It has been interesting to read what you were saying about the staff being so creepy. (and what others have said about it). Are you sensitive to people's energies? It took me years away from $cn to acknowledge how much I could sense about a person just by perceiving their energy. Creepy seems to be the quickest one can perceive among the bad energies. I am glad it helped you stay away from the church. My first encounter with a scilon was a very charismatic fellow college student.................boy did I get sucked in, and thought that orgs would be filled with people like him.
I look forward to what you have to say.
Thanks for the welcome BlackCT!
What I can offer on the subject of being sensitive to people's energy is really just my own interpretation of how this applies to me personally. It's just my own attempt to make sense of what this means for me and not in any way a metaphysical analysis of the phenomenon.
Firstly, where you say 'sensitive to people's energy', I would say 'sensitive to peoples behavior'. The information we're receiving about a given individual is via the observable behavior and disposition. I think some of this might happen at an unconscious level and this may be why we say that we 'sense' a particular thing about a person, a something we can't quite put our finger on, if you will.
I've come to believe that hyper sensitivity is at least partially an innate in that the predisposition is already there, and when such an individual finds themselves in a certain situation, this innate sensitivity gets triggered. So this led me to look at it in terms of what it's survival value could be. Sure enough, growing up in a household where an alcoholic father might explode into anger at any given moment, and where a manipulative, passive agressive mother had a tendancy to use her children as either scapegoats or allies in whatever tactic took her fancy to 'get one up' on her abusive husband, I could see the survival value in an ability to be finely tuned to every nuance, however slight and obscure, of the behavior of my parents. That way I could be more prepared to strategise my escape or my defense or whatever was most fitting for situation. My ability to detect a near neglible change in a persons mood was the work of this survival dependant to all and any behavioral cues.
However, when this gets carried into adulthood, it doesn't always work to ones advantage. You may find yourself in an environment that does demand such sensitivity but it persists all the same. You may find yourself constantly reacting to everything that goes on around you, a human sponge soaking up way more than is necessary. This can become extremely draining.
No doubt there are people who are similarly senstive to others and it was wasn't the result of surviving the trials of an abusive household.
But, like I said at the begining of this post, this is how it makes sense to me.
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